Colbie Cailla

I was having my dinner at the dining table when I caught a glimpse of this singer on the tv and a short intro of her song "Bubbly" and thats it. I knew I gotta have it. And the next thing I know is I got her CD from the CD shop and immediately brought to work to rip into my office PC and also rip into my home laptop and transferred the songs into my phone. I will say most of the songs are what I fancy. Esp Midnight Bottle, Bubbly, Battle, Capri, Oxygen, Feeling Show, Tied Down

Below are some clips of the songs:

Message from Fairy God Mother

My heart was full of compassionate
when I see your balding head

My politeness doesnt seems to get into your brain
Even after I see you to the door way

I have promised and I will deliver.
There is no need to jump to my head!

Sarcastic I can also be, but professional me,
I shall not debate.

But alast my anger cannot contain,
so this is for you to take!


(dedicated to the Permanently Head Damaged)

Sunlight

This sunlight is bright and warm
Alone on my journey, it is peace and harmony

This baggage behind is towing me
I wanna break free, I really wanna be

This baggage is forever chained on my ankle
I tried to free it, I untangled it, I thought I did

I stretched my hands to outreach for the light
I really wanna feel the warm from it
Only then to realise the baggage is still on me

Then comes sun set and
it's just within split seconds,
the light disappeared from my vision completely

I know I am a weakling
I don believe
I cant feel
I cant give
I cant see what is geniune right in front of me
I am so so sorry

Rotting away

Boring weekends I spent rotting at home. Sat morning was doing some trashing at the badminton court again. Qixing brought his two new friends to intro me. Serene and Elaine. Nice ladies and Elaine sure played very well! Then we had a quick wash up and head down for some food.

Afterwhich was taking a slow bus ride traveling back home. Its been quite some time I ever take a long bus ride home already. And I always like to do it alone. Reading the newspaper, listening to music, watching what's on Mobile TV (altho the occassional hanging pisses me).

I do people watching too if there are any interesting strangers on board. LOL! But then I started to smear some of my parfume on my neck and wrists again when I see those school boys or girls or weird ppl sat near me, I can somehow smell something out from them. How I wish the buses will have air refresheners or purifiers install in every corners. That is the only minus point I guess. Else, I enjoy bus rides when I am not in a rush to anywhere.

The rest of the sat was rotting at home...while the tension from the aches started to built up. The back muscles hurts even when I takes a breath, I tot I hurt my lungs already. The plasters do help to relief the pain for a moment or two. And the aches are still following me thru sunday.....I do wanna meet up with you (Ginnise) and Curly Fries to do some catching ups but am still walking like a robot. So sorry..

Thats how I spend my weekends...rotting away.... :)

Crusin~

Finally my long awaited break came, and gone. Tho it was not an intended trip or I am involved in any of the planning, I just apply for the days I should be on leave and awaits for the days to arrive.

It was in the night when we set off. We were LATE.



Follow the red carpet, we were told. Some confusion over the counter after we collected our room cards, we sneaked thru openly via another entrance and boarded the cruise. As per usual, the mascots were along the way, there is no way to escape from their crutches and each of us were "captured" by their big hands securing firmly on our shoulders and we are suppose to look into the camera, smile before we are allow to be let go.

And being a kan chong spider, resulting in getting a big bruise on my kneecap while trying to get the luggage on the belt. Thought nothing about it, until...
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This is definitely a size of two 50cent coins putting together side by side. :(

Anyway! I have already in mind that it will be a "waste of time" in this trip. The basic entertainments are there, but none of it you will really be interested to go to. Was thinking of going to the KTV pub but was put off immediately by the sight of ah cheks and aunties smoking and drinking away, drowning themselves in hokkien songs. Everything is just too OLDIES!

The dining place (the buffet) which many "sailors" like us, will go for some nice food. Well, really thought something nice there.... Then the sight irks me. It was like a battle ground. A territory with large continents belonging to PRC and India. The no. of singaporeans seems really like what Habibi said, "a little red dot". Pple were queuing up for food. I witnessed some impatience ones, using their bare hands, stretching out to take the poh piahs from the buffet tray without using the common tongs. Some "policeman" (cruise staff) were patrolling frequently around the buffet counters and spot checking on those who uses bare hands to take food from the trays. It's so unhygienic!

The only thing that I can stomach are just the coffee and fish fillet.

Then the subsequent meals, we decided to go other restaurants instead. So throughout the trip, its........

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Then was a stop over at Port Klang for some shopping! So besides being able to sleep and eat, we get to SHOP too! Thank god the shopping mall was something close like singapore's mall. They have got Esprit, Mango and Harvey Norman, but the time is too short for us to have a good stop over at every level. We only manage "to clear" level one and probably a 1/4 of level two. :(

The time was drawing nearer and we have to get back on board before it sails back sg.



The last night, I spent napping awhile at the balcony. Freezing cold. Armed with a long pants and my denim jacket, it was still bearable. The only pleasure I had was sleeping....creating a cosy spot for some relaxation in the night, listening to music and enjoying the sea breeze.

The wind was blowing strong, the cruise was traveling pretty fast you can feel the constant bumping rides. Everywhere ard me was pitch dark except for the dimly lit light reflected from the deck below. But then decided to crawl back on the bed for some decent rest.

(pic is taken in the dark)



("the morning after" when i woke up)

Well! I never manage to find any jack here on board! And pretty doubt anyone will jump if I jump. Guess they will just say "Siao!" and enjoy their casino games again. I guess the only thing that will put me off from even considering a cruise trip will be seeing those PRCs and AH No NEHS on board, but can I ever resist the temptation of calmness from the sea breeze? Haiz! I pretty doubt so! I wanna go cruise again but probably this time will go alone already.

Here's a "home made" video I took to show you how much I love the crusin! ...the adrenaline rushes, its just the waves you see and the breeze you feel....you don know how much that thrills me..... :)

My tellings for today

My horror scope today

Miuccia,You may have to make a choice between spending time with friends or with family. Here is how you decide. Whoever is laying the guilt trips down thick and heavy is the party you should avoid at all costs. Split your time equally between everyone else.


My terror card today

The Hierophant is the protector of culture and traditions. Conventional by nature, he is a staunch defender of the beliefs a group embraces. He represents a spiritual guide and teacher and is someone to go to for guidance and advice. Never one to question authority, he thrives on structure and values and lives a life of conformity.


My Zoo deck today

You can make interesting amorous conquests but on condition to get rid of all negative thought about yourself; be convinced of your qualities and your charming power. It won't absolutely be the moment to indulge in business; in addition to your lack of judgment and of clear-sightedness, you'll tend to be intolerant, and this is susceptible to cause you some setbacks in your relationships. It will be time for you to take the necessary measures so as to progress in your personal and professional projects.

I am me

I have a temper like a roaring dragon
I am eccentric and mood swings like a pendulum
I do not really heed advises and likes to head butt them instead, thus creating more problems before I agree with what you say
I like to waste time dreaming, and dreaming all the way
I do not like reality as much as I do not like to see monster’s face
I do not like to explain why everyday
I like to spend time alone, it doesn’t matter where I wander as long as I am alone.
I do not like to hear explanations nor do I really like to explain for my actions
I do all those I will forbid others to do because I am a double standard person
I do not bow to anyone’s mercy, I am a queen.
I have many bad habits, eccentric mood swings which you can never understand unless you are an abstract artist
There is no way to convince me because the only person who can convince me is only my own self
I do not like to hurt others in the end I hurt even more.
I wanted to do many but never accomplish any
I am like a hermit crab or a snail or a tortoise where I feel safer hiding in my own shell.
There is no explanation why I do certain things, think certain ways, or see certain things. I am just the way I am.
There is really no ways to understand me but just appreciate me else just leave me where I alone will be more than happy.

The Rose - Bette Midler song

Some say love, it is a river

That drowns the tender reed

Some say love, it is a razor

That leaves your soul to bleed

Some say love, it is a hunger

An endless aching need

I say love, it is a flower

And you, its only seed

It's the heart, afraid of breaking

That never learns to dance

It's the dream, afraid of waking

That never takes the chance

It's the one who won't be taken

Who cannot seem to give

And the soul, afraid of dying

That never learns to live

When the night has been too lonely

And the road has been too long

And you think that love is only

for the lucky and the strong

Just remember in the winter

Far beneath the bitter snow

Lies the seed

That with the sun's love, in the spring

Becomes the rose

The new versions...

ROSES ARE RED
VIOLETS ARE BLUE
I AM YOUR MOTHER
SHOULDNT I RULE?

ROSES ARE RED
VIOLETS ARE BLUE
DAISIES ARE WHITE
AND YOU ARE A FOOL

ROSES ARE RED
VIOLETS ARE BLUE
DING DANG HAS A GLUE
AND SEAL UP ALL MY BLUES!

ROSES ARE RED
VIOLETS ARE BLUE
WHO ARE YOU, MY MISTER
STARING AT MY BOOBS!

ROSES ARE RED
VIOLETS ARE BLUE
HOLD YOUR BLADDER
AND QUICKLY GO TO THE LOO!

ROSES ARE RED
VIOLETS ARE BLUE
BITCH IS WHO
NON OTHER THAN MIU!

What do you see

So what do you see? I saw a woman popping pills and a man crying to his sleep.
So what do you see? I saw a man tossing a book and a woman stood in daze.
So what do you see? I saw a man with blue roses and a woman who seem pleased.
So what do you see? I saw a woman with blissful gaze and a man who seems lucky. They are an envied couple for all to see.

So what do you see? When darkness is all you see, and you have to continue your walking, while uncertainty fills up every corner but you still have to walk forward, figuring your own way out from your own spin.

What do you see, tell me, what do you see?

A photo frame

A photo frame without an image,
it is just a frame, many will say.

But this frame works wonder,
not that it has not a picture.

But ppl see this frame,
and saw pretty little faces

It’s all in the brain, up to you to play.

A frame beautifies the plain
but how many dozens appreciate the frame more than the image?

Without the frame, it is just an image.
With the frame, it is still just an image.

What do you see? The image or the frame?

A gulp of ocean

Turn, turn away
When I am walking along that bay
It is to keep you safe

Will diamonds turn to ashes next to my grave?
Will the sky ever fall and suffocates?

Another fallen angel kneeling before the moon ray,
taking it’s vow before it is tow away

Thing weren’t meant to be this way
Do I allow myself a little time to cry?

If a gulp of water represents a tear,
then I will be drinking an ocean right away…

Merry Valentine's Day

It’s Valentine’s Day today, the 8th day of lunar new year. Merry Valentine’s Day to everyone.

The 2nd day of lunar new year was a busy day for all of us. Dressing up and ready to conquer the places one by one. 1st was to Grandpa house, then to Great Grand Mother’s house (tho she is long long long no longer ard but some relatives still stays there), then to 2nd Uncle’s place. We were all dead tired. I sort of forgot what I did in the evening but guess I was too tired to even remember a single thing. All I know is that I bing eat and sleep and sleep and bing eat again infront of the TV, lying on the sofa while msning too.

3rd day, Emily and Alston came over to my house and woooh my dear Alston! He sure is an adorable boy! He looks smart in his shirt and jeans, then he happily shook my hand and walked in. I brought him to say hi to my family. And he started roaming around…. playing…..and felt so at ease.

My ex neighbor came over too, bring along their granddaughter and Alston keep calling her “Di Di”. The “young couple” went to see the tortoise together and we have to correct Alston a couple to times its “Mei Mei, not Di Di”.

Then Emily got him changed into wearing something more casual and we started playing with the lap top together. Emily said I should open up a window word and enlarge font size to 48 and he can play already, and so I did! He started keying in each alphabet one by one. Then he will get me to clear the screen while he retypes again and this action kind of err…….repeated a couple of times.

Ahem! Now I am called Auntie Ling as what Alston will address me as. And I am so f-king high whenever I hear him shouting “Auntie Ling Ah!”

And when I disturbed him by clearing his screen when he is still typing away, he will say “Haiz…You huh…” then smile and retype again. Then I was hanging the wet clothing on the bamboo pole. He came over and held one end of the pole with his tiny hands. I coaxed him and assure its fine to rest it on the table. Then he went over the pile of spin dried clothes and randomly picked some for me to hang.

We worked like partners in crime. Me, telling him, “Towel! Towel! Neh, over here!” and him, trying to make sense of how a towel looks like. Then he helped to get me the pegs and I have to tell him “Alston! Red one, red one! Neh……..”. Then he will repeat “Red one ah?” and I will have to assure him “Ah!”



Within just a day, we became good friend. While I am msning away, he climbed up the sofa and snuggled close to me. Then he took my sister’s Bumpy (a toy lamb) to play ard with, then drinking his milk and took a cushion and lie flat on the sofa next to his mum and took a nap.



In the evening, we dropped him and his mum at Jurong Point and off we went to catch a movie CJ7.

A wonderful boy with proper good bringing up. I wish to spend more time with him though. Hopes he will not forget all about Auntie Ling. :)

Another day passed. Sunday was supposed to meet up Ginnise, Daniel or Mdm Cheong and her hubby. Again, a greedy me, trying to fix meeting two different groups in one day and I finally got my warning. LOL!

I always have the habit of fixing different groups of friends into one gathering so that I need not go out so often in different days. Imagine if you have 5 groups who wanna meet up, and your Monday to Friday maybe packed to meet up all the groups! So if it allows, I would rather meet up, a few groups sharing the same activities, in one day.

I’m still so dead tired. The salonpas are pasted firmly from lower back to upper back. Don’t know why been having blur vision lately and the damn cough is still persistently harassing me (though I cough little as before). Guess I need an eye check soon. :)

Sweeney Todd

A wink in his eye

A smirk to beguile

Sweeney held his razor to the skies

And let freely flow the blood

Of those who would moralize

Merry New Year!

First of all! Happy happy new year to all readers! May you have many many good lucks and health and money many many this auspicious year!

Sis got her car already! Nice one, sporty outlook and a good size for lady drivers. Red and white rims. Red is the suitable color for this model. Yeah! Maybe I should seriously consider getting my driving license. Then I can chose to drive between two hondas (provided that I get my license la)...but.....the phobia...haiz... oke, I be brave..I be brave...I need all your powers! Argh.........






The 5 of us had our joyous reunion dinner at home. I fell into deep coma right after the dinner.This is the first time I missed out the countdown. So many messages when I took a peep at my phone. A total of roughly 20 messages I received this year. I am slowly feeling the mood of it.

It's 5am early first day of lunar new year. Our usual practice is to visit the temple. It's cold and dark in the morning. The crowd is still bearable. Then we went to the coffee shop to have our vegetarian breakfast.




Then off we went to Hong Leong Shopping Centre for another prayer (private ritual). The Hong Leong Shopping Centre is indeed very old but pretty much and hearsay, in 3 years time, it will be demolished for en bloc. So I took a few photographs of it to capture the glimpse before the building disappear before our eyes.







After the blessings from the priest, we went to another temple for prayers and blessings (again), another usual temple we go to. And by the time we reached home and settle down, its already 1pm. And now.... one on the sofa, one lying on the floor, one in the bedroom....sleeping and snoring away while I am typing and perhaps dozing off too....

A celebration of torture - CNY

My neck is strained. My head seems like it has grown bigger therefore it’s weight is too much for my narrow neck to support. The weight on my shoulders feels like two dumb bells forever resting on them. The upper back is aching and it feels better whenever I lie on my stomach flat when resting. I am just too tired.

The bed sheets have been changed. The goodies are almost all prepared and stored nicely at the corner of the living room. The curtains changed, windows cleaned, toilets and sofa seat covers washed. New TV console and coffee table, pots of flowers were bought, ribbons are almost all tie up nicely. I bought a new clock and photo frame for the living room as well. I cut my finger while peeling the water chestnuts, I bumped my butt when jumping down from the chair after cleaning the windows, dead skin were peeling off from my bare hands becos of the overdose of detergents they were in contact with. Too bad don’t get to paint the house this year. I fixed the almost collapsed cabinets by myself with nuts and screws and hammer and drivers. They are still intact till today.

Yet, there are still some more things left undone. The kitchen has not yet wash, the seats and carpet need to be vacuumed, fans are to be cleaned, the main door I have not wipe (I just remember)!

Tomorrow is the eve, and we will need to collect the Kuey Lapis, buy the roasted duck, mum has got to cook lots more stuff for some offering prayers. Evening will have to prepare for steamboat reunion dinner. Then all of us will be slumping in front of the tv watching the mediacorp clowns performing then getting a deserving rest, finally. So many things to do and who says CNY is a joyous occasions?! $%#$%$%@!

The new shaolin gongfu!

The troop of 5 woke up ard 5:30am. We set off at ard 6 or 6:30am. Went to the hawker to get the necessity and head down to Kwan Ming Shan to make offerings to my late grandma.

Then was to dropping by my uncle's store at holland V, having our breakfast and the elderly, as per usual, having their updates and news reports.

Then while feeling boring, we spotted a 高人...we believe must been from 少林 or 武党山, who must be practising his 轻功 while queuing up for beenhoon....(hardworking siah)!!!

I believe its called the hanky stance it is called, testing one's inhale tolerance level to the upper most highest powerful level.


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(CLICK PHOTO TO ENLARGE VIEW)


Waking up early has one gd point, we dun miss out the possible fun...... :)

I am a mannequin

How does it feel? Is there life living in it?
That perfect frame, that perfect eyes, that perfect nose bridge, oh, all these perfect shapes.
How fortunate am I? Where everyone walking pass will envy.

Do I feel the shame, standing stark naked in the display?
Do I feel anger, when my head was exchanged, taken off or were never there in the first place?
Do I feel offended, when anyone can just lift up my skirt or tuck my skirt for size and price tag?
Do I protest, when I am not given a face?
Do I cry when I stood long hours, not given a rest, maintaining the smile and brave through the cold, everyday?
Can I let out a scream when you twist my hands off?
Can I confide with my followers or fall in love with the man standing nearby?

The adrenalines are all blocked. For no emotions ran through my brain cells or was there any in the first place?
I am a soul awaiting to be revived.
I am a life, waiting for you to drip some blood in me.

Alone in the starry starry night, I saw twinkling red lights.
The full moon gave out some gloomy light.
I saw my faded reflection upon the window pane.
I am just another mannequin on display.