Failure makes you know what is shame, what is pain
Failure makes you stronger each time you face a similar situation, you don’t take disappointment too hard, you don’t hurt too much, and you don’t even twitch your eye lid.
Failure is a lesson to be learnt and not to drown in it.
Failure tells you what is hardship and so you appreciate life better and are more humble.
Failure trains up your capablity, confidence and independence. Cos when you fail, although everyone maybe be around you, you are the only one facing it.
Take failure positively! I used to let it destroyed me, but I survived still, after all, at last, nevertheless, in the end.
Never let it swallow you!!!
Tuesday, May 29, 2007
I got it! I got it!
I got it! I got it! I got the position after the round two interview! I was actually worried and disappointed with my performance during the second interview. I was apparently give a test, two paragraph write up to spot the no. of e's. I spotted only 52 out of 63. :(
The test was to gauge my accuracy at work. Glad it does not affect alot of my impression to them. I thought I looked like a bimbo to her. Glad she never think it that way.
I was sincere, I was frank, I was direct, I was all ready to accept the offer. Although my 6 years of experiences in my current work place is not consider related, but they offered me a salary which I am contented (very close to my current pay). The room for learning new things is vast!
I hope to work hard for these three years. So guess, I will come online lesser. Probably no more activating msn in office comp, no more blogging (during office hrs).
I want to excel further! I must! Thank you all for supports!
The test was to gauge my accuracy at work. Glad it does not affect alot of my impression to them. I thought I looked like a bimbo to her. Glad she never think it that way.
I was sincere, I was frank, I was direct, I was all ready to accept the offer. Although my 6 years of experiences in my current work place is not consider related, but they offered me a salary which I am contented (very close to my current pay). The room for learning new things is vast!
I hope to work hard for these three years. So guess, I will come online lesser. Probably no more activating msn in office comp, no more blogging (during office hrs).
I want to excel further! I must! Thank you all for supports!
Have you seen the dead?
Have you seen the dead?
While it is living, it lie on bed
While it is dead, it is rested on the floor
The white cotton cloth wrapped it up from head to toe
You stand in the rain, waited for the van
The dead is treated like a piece of good
Shoved up in the boot
And away to be dolled and clothed
Have you seen the dead?
While it is living, it lie on bed
While it is dead, it is rested on the floor
The white cotton cloth wrapped it up from head to toe
You stand in the rain, waited for the van
The dead is treated like a piece of good
Shoved up in the boot
And away to be dolled and clothed
Have you seen the dead?
冤冤相报何时了，不报怨气何时消
没有华丽的衣衫，没有闪耀的珠宝
漫长的坎坷丝路，只有我勇敢漫步
苍天为我哭一回，蝴蝶为我掉眼泪
枯萎的叶子落幕，为我创造完结篇
人在做，天在看
你的错，会被记大过
冤冤相报何时了，不报怨气何时消
也不是我不敢报，只是你时辰为到！
漫长的坎坷丝路，只有我勇敢漫步
苍天为我哭一回，蝴蝶为我掉眼泪
枯萎的叶子落幕，为我创造完结篇
人在做，天在看
你的错，会被记大过
冤冤相报何时了，不报怨气何时消
也不是我不敢报，只是你时辰为到！
The music
Music that screams out my inner voice! It's Linkin!
Music that rocks my soul! It's Linkin!
Music that drives me in a rocket! It's Linkin!
Music that sends thrill to my spine! It's Linkin!
Music that brings me as good as ecstasy could give me! It's Linkin!
Music that makes me crawl in anger! It's Linkin!
Music that verge out my frustration! It's Linkin!
Music that lead me to my insanity! It's Linkin!
Music that knocks words out! It's Linkin!
Music that runs marathon! It's Linkin!
Music that slam my head against the wall! It's Linkin!
Music that drops me to onto the concrete! It's Linkin!
Music that rips my thoughts! It's Linkin!
Music that tears my rib cage! It's Linkin!
Music that kills my happiness! It's Linkin!
Music that will not cleanse and return peace! It's Linkin!
Music that sink me deep! It's Linkin!
Music that summon my evil spirit! It's Linkin!
Music that shakes my head non stop! It's Linkin!
Music that makes me a drop tear of anger! It's Linkin!
Music that fuck up my simple life! It's Linkin!
Crawling - Linkin Park
crawling in my skin
these wounds they will not heal
fear is how I fall
confusing what is real
there's something inside me that pulls beneath the surface
consuming/confusing
this lack of self-control I fear is never ending
controlling/I can't seem
to find myself again
my walls are closing in
(without a sense of confidence I'm convinced that there's just too much pressure to take)
I've felt this way before
so insecure
crawling in my skin
these wounds they will not heal
fear is how I fall
confusing what is real
discomfort, endlessly has pulled itself upon me
distracting/reacting
against my will I stand beside my own reflection
it`s haunting how i cant seem...
to find myself again
my walls are closing in
(without a sense of confidence I'm convinced that there's just too much pressure to take)
I've felt this way before
so insecure
crawling in my skin
these wounds they will not heal
fear is how I fall
confusing what is real
crawling in my skin
these wounds they will not heal
fear is how I fall
confusing confusing what is real
there's something inside me that pulls beneath the surface
consuming,confusing what is real
this lack of self-control I fear is never ending
controlling,confusing what is real
Numb - Linkin Park
I'm tired of being what you want me to be
feeling so faithless
lost under the surface
I don't know what you're expecting of me
put under the pressure
of walking in your shoes
[caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow]
every step that I take is another mistake to you
[caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow]
I've
become so numb
I can't feel you there
become so tired
so much more aware
I'm becoming this
all I want to do
is be more like me
and be less like you.
can't you see that you're smothering me
holding too tightly
afraid to lose control
cause everything that you thought I would be
is falling apart right in front of you.
[caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow],
every step that I take is another mistake to you
[caught in the undertow,just caught in the undertow]
and every second I waste is more than I can take.
I've
become so numb
I can't feel you there
become so tired
so much more aware
I'm becoming this
all I want to do
is be more like me
and be less like you.
And I know
I may end up failing too
But I know
you were just like me
with someone disappointed in you.
I've
become so numb
I can't feel you there
become so tired
so much more aware
I'm becoming this
all I want to do
is be more like me
and be less like you.
I've
become so numb
I can't feel you there
[tired of being what you want me to be]
(repeat x 2)
feeling so faithless
lost under the surface
I don't know what you're expecting of me
put under the pressure
of walking in your shoes
[caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow]
every step that I take is another mistake to you
[caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow]
I've
become so numb
I can't feel you there
become so tired
so much more aware
I'm becoming this
all I want to do
is be more like me
and be less like you.
can't you see that you're smothering me
holding too tightly
afraid to lose control
cause everything that you thought I would be
is falling apart right in front of you.
[caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow],
every step that I take is another mistake to you
[caught in the undertow,just caught in the undertow]
and every second I waste is more than I can take.
I've
become so numb
I can't feel you there
become so tired
so much more aware
I'm becoming this
all I want to do
is be more like me
and be less like you.
And I know
I may end up failing too
But I know
you were just like me
with someone disappointed in you.
I've
become so numb
I can't feel you there
become so tired
so much more aware
I'm becoming this
all I want to do
is be more like me
and be less like you.
I've
become so numb
I can't feel you there
[tired of being what you want me to be]
(repeat x 2)
Breaking the habit - Linkin Park
Memories consume
Like opening the wound
I'm picking me apart again
You all assume
I'm safe here in my room
Unless I try to start again
I don't want to be the one
The battles always choose
'Cause inside I realize
That I'm the one confused
I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
I don't know why I instigate
And say what I don't mean
I don't know how I got this way
I know it's not all right
So I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit tonight
Clutching my cure
I tightly lock the door
I try to catch my breath again
I hurt much more
Than any time before
I have no options left again
I don't want to be the one
The battles always choose
'Cause inside I realize
That I'm the one confused
I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
I don't know why I instigate
And say what I don't mean
I don't know how I got this way
I'll never be all right
So I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit tonight
I'll paint it on the walls
'Cause I'm the one at fault
I'll never fight again
And this is how it ends
I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
But now I have some clarity
To show you what I mean
I don't know how I got this way
I'll never be all right
So I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit... tonight
Like opening the wound
I'm picking me apart again
You all assume
I'm safe here in my room
Unless I try to start again
I don't want to be the one
The battles always choose
'Cause inside I realize
That I'm the one confused
I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
I don't know why I instigate
And say what I don't mean
I don't know how I got this way
I know it's not all right
So I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit tonight
Clutching my cure
I tightly lock the door
I try to catch my breath again
I hurt much more
Than any time before
I have no options left again
I don't want to be the one
The battles always choose
'Cause inside I realize
That I'm the one confused
I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
I don't know why I instigate
And say what I don't mean
I don't know how I got this way
I'll never be all right
So I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit tonight
I'll paint it on the walls
'Cause I'm the one at fault
I'll never fight again
And this is how it ends
I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
But now I have some clarity
To show you what I mean
I don't know how I got this way
I'll never be all right
So I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit... tonight
Nobody's listening! (Linkin Park)
Come
Come
Come
Come
Coming at you
Come
Coming at you
Come
Coming at you...
Yo, peep the style and the kids checking for it
The number one question is "how could you ignore it?"
We drop right back in the cut
Over basement tracks
With raps that got you backing this up like
{Like rewind that}
We're just rollin' with the rhythm,
Rise from the ashes of stylistic division
With these non-stop lyrics are life living,
Not to be forgotten, but still unforgiven
But in the meantime, there are those
Who wanna talk this and that, so I suppose
It gets to a point feelings got to get hurt,
And get dirty with the people spreading the dirt
It goes...
Tried to give you warning, but everyone ignores me
Told you everything loud and clear
But nobody's listening
Call to you so clearly, but you don't want to hear me
Told you everything loud and clear
But nobody's listening
I got a heart full of pain, head full of stress
Hand full of anger, held in my chest
And everything left's a waste of time,
I hate my rhymes, but hate everyone else's more
I'm riding on the back of this pressure,
Guessing that it's better, I can't keep myself together
Because all of this stress gave me something to write on,
But pain gave me something I could set my sights on
Never forget the blood, sweat and tears,
The uphill struggle over years, the fear and
Trash talking and the people it was to,
And the people that started it, just like you
Tried to give you warning, but everyone ignores me
Told you everything loud and clear
But nobody's listening
Called to you so clearly, but you don't want to hear me
Told you everything loud and clear
But nobody's listening
I got a heart full of pain, head full of stress
Hand full of anger, held in my chest
Uphill struggle, blood, sweat and tears
Nothing to gain, everything to fear
Heart full of pain, head full of stress
Hand full of anger, held in my chest
Uphill struggle, blood, sweat and tears
Nothing to gain, everything to fear
Heart full of pain
Heart full of pain
Heart full of pain...
Tried to give you warning, but everyone ignores me
Told you everything loud and clear
But nobody's listening
Called to you so clearly, but you don't want to hear me
Told you everything loud and clear
But nobody's listening
I got a heart full of pain, head full of stress
Nobody's listening
Hand full of anger, held in my chest
Nobody's listening
Uphill struggle, blood, sweat and tears
Nobody's listening
Nothing to gain, everything to fear
Nobody's listening
Come
Come
Come
Come
Come
Coming at you
Coming
Coming
Coming
Coming
Coming at you
Come
Coming
Come
Coming
Coming at you
Come
Come
Come
Come
Coming at you from every side
Come
Come
Come
Coming at you
Come
Coming at you
Come
Coming at you...
Yo, peep the style and the kids checking for it
The number one question is "how could you ignore it?"
We drop right back in the cut
Over basement tracks
With raps that got you backing this up like
{Like rewind that}
We're just rollin' with the rhythm,
Rise from the ashes of stylistic division
With these non-stop lyrics are life living,
Not to be forgotten, but still unforgiven
But in the meantime, there are those
Who wanna talk this and that, so I suppose
It gets to a point feelings got to get hurt,
And get dirty with the people spreading the dirt
It goes...
Tried to give you warning, but everyone ignores me
Told you everything loud and clear
But nobody's listening
Call to you so clearly, but you don't want to hear me
Told you everything loud and clear
But nobody's listening
I got a heart full of pain, head full of stress
Hand full of anger, held in my chest
And everything left's a waste of time,
I hate my rhymes, but hate everyone else's more
I'm riding on the back of this pressure,
Guessing that it's better, I can't keep myself together
Because all of this stress gave me something to write on,
But pain gave me something I could set my sights on
Never forget the blood, sweat and tears,
The uphill struggle over years, the fear and
Trash talking and the people it was to,
And the people that started it, just like you
Tried to give you warning, but everyone ignores me
Told you everything loud and clear
But nobody's listening
Called to you so clearly, but you don't want to hear me
Told you everything loud and clear
But nobody's listening
I got a heart full of pain, head full of stress
Hand full of anger, held in my chest
Uphill struggle, blood, sweat and tears
Nothing to gain, everything to fear
Heart full of pain, head full of stress
Hand full of anger, held in my chest
Uphill struggle, blood, sweat and tears
Nothing to gain, everything to fear
Heart full of pain
Heart full of pain
Heart full of pain...
Tried to give you warning, but everyone ignores me
Told you everything loud and clear
But nobody's listening
Called to you so clearly, but you don't want to hear me
Told you everything loud and clear
But nobody's listening
I got a heart full of pain, head full of stress
Nobody's listening
Hand full of anger, held in my chest
Nobody's listening
Uphill struggle, blood, sweat and tears
Nobody's listening
Nothing to gain, everything to fear
Nobody's listening
Come
Come
Come
Come
Come
Coming at you
Coming
Coming
Coming
Coming
Coming at you
Come
Coming
Come
Coming
Coming at you
Come
Come
Come
Come
Coming at you from every side
Monday, May 28, 2007
Sab, Gelia - Dedication to you
I know friends are spies to others. You may read Sab. You may hide. You may feel shameless and gay all the time. The wheels rotates 360. Nothing is certain till you die. Enjoy your happiest moment before all turn into ashes, and bring you to nothingness. I have been thru your honeymoon stage. Everyone has their turn awaits for them. I do wish you all the best with him cos that is what you only deserve. Your happiness with him is feelingless to me. I dont feel a thing when you talks about it. Dont have to pretend its happily ever after with him. Every couple has fights and disagreement you may chose to conceal. So I dun envy both of you. Feeling changed and I love someone else now.
Ask your chocolate chip friend dun think too highly of herself. That damn face which exist in this world to show others what is ugliness, is not what I hope to see or wish to. She do not have the caliber to be stalked either. Both of us have a breathing space in this world.
You will slowly know what you need to in two years time. Time is a good factor to slowly peel off that layers of skin from the mask you both are wearing and soon standing naked in front of each other and realise how hideous looking both can be. Just remember that everyone has their turn for ups and downs. Awaits that day to come. May you handle it with care and are strong. I have moved on well and fruitfully. My moment of downs was over a year ago. Yours are approaching soon. Its a cycle we all have to go thru. May god be with you or condemn you.
R.I.P
Ask your chocolate chip friend dun think too highly of herself. That damn face which exist in this world to show others what is ugliness, is not what I hope to see or wish to. She do not have the caliber to be stalked either. Both of us have a breathing space in this world.
You will slowly know what you need to in two years time. Time is a good factor to slowly peel off that layers of skin from the mask you both are wearing and soon standing naked in front of each other and realise how hideous looking both can be. Just remember that everyone has their turn for ups and downs. Awaits that day to come. May you handle it with care and are strong. I have moved on well and fruitfully. My moment of downs was over a year ago. Yours are approaching soon. Its a cycle we all have to go thru. May god be with you or condemn you.
R.I.P
Lao Zarbo
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Sunday, May 27, 2007
Is love, everything?
Slept ard 4am, waking up at 9am. Sitting at my sofa, I thought about yesterday evening. Friend msned me in the same night asking if CJ (my so call secondary school hood sweetheart LOL!) and I are together again? What do they mean by "together AGAIN?" Well, do we behave like a couple?! Our "relationship" back then was in the name of it only. Not even holding hands. He was always seen hiding behind that tree or pillar, looking at me while I chat with my friend in the canteen. Sweet.......its those innocent love we had for each other back then. Things were so much simpler when we are young. Anyway, I seem to be always in suspect of starting a new relationship whenever I speak and chat with guys. Or they just cannot get over the secondary sch past?
Must I always be in a relationship? Being single miu is abnormal???? Gosh, its always this they are interested. But, yes, CJ and I has always been in contact, we go out together, watch movie, I confide in him (sometimes), we go shopping together, help him chose shirts. Thats all. He is attached liow lah! If we should be together, we would have been long ago.
Anyway, was chatting with CJ about relationships. Apparently, the wedded couple have known each other for 10 years. I never realize it has been for so long they are together!!! Time flies when I am blind.
And they are not the only couple around me that has such long marathon relationship. I know another couple friend, who has been together since my secondary sch days, so they have been together for say 14 or 15 years? And only recently, they have decided to tie the knot in coming Nov. It was amazing, commented CJ. Sad to say, yes I agree such marathon relationships seem to have nearing an extinction. Perhaps relationships nowadays around us have been too short lived that we see marathon ones as saints and goddess. But they do happen. They are real. Just that it does not happen to everyone of us.
Being in a courtship, whether its 1 year, or 10 years, does it really matter? How many stays thru in a marriage and till they aged and die? You may have stayed in courtship for 20 years, but in marriage for 1mth. You have have stayed in courtship for 1mth, but in marriage for a lifetime. So does time really matters?
So if time is not a factor here, what keeps a couple together? Was it only love? No. Feeling is an instant attraction.
Its commitment, communication, its accepting the person for what he or she is, wholesomely. Its tolerance of a person that he or she is perfect. Being able to stay together in the same house for a lifetime, a lot of tolerance is needed. Sometimes, we cannot even give ways to our sibling's daily habits but tolerance and patience helps to make all of us stays together under in the same roof throughout the years. And so, such tolerance and patience should be apply in every relationship as well. It is most necessary especially when two complete strangers with no kinship relation, meet and decide to build a home together.
Besides seeing the good points, we should also accept the fact that no one is perfect. Anyway, its there perfect person in the 1st place?!?!?!?!?!? It's about adapting to each other's daily habits. It's about being not seeking perfection.
So, ppl, everytime, you see someone you like, look at the imperfection first. If you can accept all the imperfection, the rest are bonus. Love and romance is just the decoration that add sparks to the everyday you spend together with your loved one. Get the mindset right and be practical. :)
Must I always be in a relationship? Being single miu is abnormal???? Gosh, its always this they are interested. But, yes, CJ and I has always been in contact, we go out together, watch movie, I confide in him (sometimes), we go shopping together, help him chose shirts. Thats all. He is attached liow lah! If we should be together, we would have been long ago.
Anyway, was chatting with CJ about relationships. Apparently, the wedded couple have known each other for 10 years. I never realize it has been for so long they are together!!! Time flies when I am blind.
And they are not the only couple around me that has such long marathon relationship. I know another couple friend, who has been together since my secondary sch days, so they have been together for say 14 or 15 years? And only recently, they have decided to tie the knot in coming Nov. It was amazing, commented CJ. Sad to say, yes I agree such marathon relationships seem to have nearing an extinction. Perhaps relationships nowadays around us have been too short lived that we see marathon ones as saints and goddess. But they do happen. They are real. Just that it does not happen to everyone of us.
Being in a courtship, whether its 1 year, or 10 years, does it really matter? How many stays thru in a marriage and till they aged and die? You may have stayed in courtship for 20 years, but in marriage for 1mth. You have have stayed in courtship for 1mth, but in marriage for a lifetime. So does time really matters?
So if time is not a factor here, what keeps a couple together? Was it only love? No. Feeling is an instant attraction.
Its commitment, communication, its accepting the person for what he or she is, wholesomely. Its tolerance of a person that he or she is perfect. Being able to stay together in the same house for a lifetime, a lot of tolerance is needed. Sometimes, we cannot even give ways to our sibling's daily habits but tolerance and patience helps to make all of us stays together under in the same roof throughout the years. And so, such tolerance and patience should be apply in every relationship as well. It is most necessary especially when two complete strangers with no kinship relation, meet and decide to build a home together.
Besides seeing the good points, we should also accept the fact that no one is perfect. Anyway, its there perfect person in the 1st place?!?!?!?!?!? It's about adapting to each other's daily habits. It's about being not seeking perfection.
So, ppl, everytime, you see someone you like, look at the imperfection first. If you can accept all the imperfection, the rest are bonus. Love and romance is just the decoration that add sparks to the everyday you spend together with your loved one. Get the mindset right and be practical. :)
Augustana - Bostons (lyrics)
in the light of the sun, is there anyone? oh it has begun...
oh dear you look so lost, eyes are red and tears are shed,
this world you must've crossed...you said...
you don't know me, you don't even care,
you don't know me, you don't wear my chains...
essential and appealed, carry all your thoughts across
an open field,
when flowers gaze at you...they're not the only ones who cry
when they see you
you said...
you don't know me, you don't even care,
you don't know me, you don't wear my chains...
she said i think i'll go to boston...
i think i'll start a new life,
i think i'll start it over, where no one knows my name,
i'll get out of california, i'm tired of the weather,
i think i'll get a lover and fly em out to spain...
i think i'll go to boston,
i think that i'm just tired
i think i need a new tow, to leave this all behind...
i think i need a sunrise, i'm tired of the sunset,
i hear it's nice in the summer, some snow would be nice...
boston...where no one knows my name...
oh dear you look so lost, eyes are red and tears are shed,
this world you must've crossed...you said...
you don't know me, you don't even care,
you don't know me, you don't wear my chains...
essential and appealed, carry all your thoughts across
an open field,
when flowers gaze at you...they're not the only ones who cry
when they see you
you said...
you don't know me, you don't even care,
you don't know me, you don't wear my chains...
she said i think i'll go to boston...
i think i'll start a new life,
i think i'll start it over, where no one knows my name,
i'll get out of california, i'm tired of the weather,
i think i'll get a lover and fly em out to spain...
i think i'll go to boston,
i think that i'm just tired
i think i need a new tow, to leave this all behind...
i think i need a sunrise, i'm tired of the sunset,
i hear it's nice in the summer, some snow would be nice...
boston...where no one knows my name...
A meaningful night
Dolling up for the evening. I slept till 6:30pm. Only to wake up when I feel the wetness on side of my mouth. Whahaha! I drooled. Th head hurts still but still, I went as planned.
Met my sec-hood "sweetheart" and we sat at the same table and I saw the rest too! Glad to met Sansan again after so long. Updated each other and I have to congrats her for her newborn, a son, 4 mths old already! And she is currently a full time mother taking care of her baby at home. :)
Evelyn! You look great! Sexily nice! And Ah Long! You look like a white prince charming this evening! I give you both my sincere blessings and hope to see a new member soon in your sweet little family yah? :)
I met many familar faces, Xinyi, Shihui, Ivy, Jingchun, Huimin, Weihan, Yongkiat, even our secondary sch teachers were there too!!! It's updating time, and some asked about me, that question as I excepted and I was able to take it gracefully that I have broken up for a year already! They seemed surprised. :) But well! Change is the only thing that is constant! And now, I can gladly say, I love this change! I like my life now. Whether you believe or not, I dun have to prove to you, but yes, I like my life now. Dun worry, I am not closing my options to anyone yet, but I definitely not the sort who jump into a relationship and out fast. So I believe, many things are planned out for me already. I just need to be patience and live everyday the way I want it to be!
I am glad everyone is well and they are glad I am still doing good and alive and kicking still. LOL! Do I look like a weakling?! Haiz. Never judge a book by its cover. I may have a damsel in distress outlook (to deceive you all to be nice to me!) but I may be a devil inner who can be very hard hearted to everyone! And I am strong than you can ever imagine, its only a matter of whether I want to or not. So dun ever thought that I stay away from yous, means I am unhappy or someone hurts me again. I simply do not wish to be with you ppl thats all. I am not a weakling as imagined by yous. Anyway, I dun have to prove myself. Your opinions are nothing to me.
Some are glad to see me again, some blamed me for not meeting up, muahahaha! what have I done!! I am so sorry!! Some I dun wish to see but saw, and I can only smile, keep myself busy with food or chat and joke with my sec-hood "sweetheart" or my gal friends. LOL!!
The head hurts and sounded alarm that I should head home. Gosh it's late. And it's 2am now. I guess the bed needs my warmth. Till my next entry!
Met my sec-hood "sweetheart" and we sat at the same table and I saw the rest too! Glad to met Sansan again after so long. Updated each other and I have to congrats her for her newborn, a son, 4 mths old already! And she is currently a full time mother taking care of her baby at home. :)
Evelyn! You look great! Sexily nice! And Ah Long! You look like a white prince charming this evening! I give you both my sincere blessings and hope to see a new member soon in your sweet little family yah? :)
I met many familar faces, Xinyi, Shihui, Ivy, Jingchun, Huimin, Weihan, Yongkiat, even our secondary sch teachers were there too!!! It's updating time, and some asked about me, that question as I excepted and I was able to take it gracefully that I have broken up for a year already! They seemed surprised. :) But well! Change is the only thing that is constant! And now, I can gladly say, I love this change! I like my life now. Whether you believe or not, I dun have to prove to you, but yes, I like my life now. Dun worry, I am not closing my options to anyone yet, but I definitely not the sort who jump into a relationship and out fast. So I believe, many things are planned out for me already. I just need to be patience and live everyday the way I want it to be!
I am glad everyone is well and they are glad I am still doing good and alive and kicking still. LOL! Do I look like a weakling?! Haiz. Never judge a book by its cover. I may have a damsel in distress outlook (to deceive you all to be nice to me!) but I may be a devil inner who can be very hard hearted to everyone! And I am strong than you can ever imagine, its only a matter of whether I want to or not. So dun ever thought that I stay away from yous, means I am unhappy or someone hurts me again. I simply do not wish to be with you ppl thats all. I am not a weakling as imagined by yous. Anyway, I dun have to prove myself. Your opinions are nothing to me.
Some are glad to see me again, some blamed me for not meeting up, muahahaha! what have I done!! I am so sorry!! Some I dun wish to see but saw, and I can only smile, keep myself busy with food or chat and joke with my sec-hood "sweetheart" or my gal friends. LOL!!
The head hurts and sounded alarm that I should head home. Gosh it's late. And it's 2am now. I guess the bed needs my warmth. Till my next entry!
Friday, May 25, 2007
Don't have to lie to get my attention, my friend
Why do you have to lie?
Why do you have to lie?
Why do you have to lie to get my attention?
Why haven you grow up?
Why haven you grow up?
Why haven you grow up and be a mature man?
Why do you have to keep asking?
Why do you have to keep asking?
Why do you have to keep asking about my love life?
What are you really concern?
What are you really concern?
What are you really concern about with my well being or just only if I have dated any guys?
Is that what you only want to know?
Is that what you only want to know?
Is that what you only want to know that you have to lie to get your way thru?
Who are you?
Who are you?
Who are you that msn me everytime just to pester about updates on my love life?
Are you someone close?
Are you someone close?
Are you someone I can rely on?
Are you friend?
Are you friend?
Are you friend or foe?
Have I been cruel?
Have I been cruel?
Have I been cruel to ignore all for I have known for 15 years?
Time is a factor?
Time is a factor?
Time is a factor that whether friends are friends or foes it doesnt matter?
Just leave me alone
Leave me alone
I am happy with my current life and that's all I should let you know.
Love life is not of your updates and news to all the rest.
I will not let anyone come close and know.
So what if I have? So what if I dun have?
Am I suppose to keep you in the loop or suspense?
So what if I keep you in the loop?
So what if I keep you in the suspense?
Keep you in the loop and you will tell who?
Keep you in suspense so you will not have anything to tell any whos
You just need to grow up and think like a man
I am thankful if you are truthful, I despise and avoid if you are just kpo.
And most imptly, don't have to lie to get my attention, my friend.
Why do you have to lie?
Why do you have to lie to get my attention?
Why haven you grow up?
Why haven you grow up?
Why haven you grow up and be a mature man?
Why do you have to keep asking?
Why do you have to keep asking?
Why do you have to keep asking about my love life?
What are you really concern?
What are you really concern?
What are you really concern about with my well being or just only if I have dated any guys?
Is that what you only want to know?
Is that what you only want to know?
Is that what you only want to know that you have to lie to get your way thru?
Who are you?
Who are you?
Who are you that msn me everytime just to pester about updates on my love life?
Are you someone close?
Are you someone close?
Are you someone I can rely on?
Are you friend?
Are you friend?
Are you friend or foe?
Have I been cruel?
Have I been cruel?
Have I been cruel to ignore all for I have known for 15 years?
Time is a factor?
Time is a factor?
Time is a factor that whether friends are friends or foes it doesnt matter?
Just leave me alone
Leave me alone
I am happy with my current life and that's all I should let you know.
Love life is not of your updates and news to all the rest.
I will not let anyone come close and know.
So what if I have? So what if I dun have?
Am I suppose to keep you in the loop or suspense?
So what if I keep you in the loop?
So what if I keep you in the suspense?
Keep you in the loop and you will tell who?
Keep you in suspense so you will not have anything to tell any whos
You just need to grow up and think like a man
I am thankful if you are truthful, I despise and avoid if you are just kpo.
And most imptly, don't have to lie to get my attention, my friend.
Thursday, May 24, 2007
A change coming soon?
Another interview I went today. Environment looks so much better than the rat hole I am in for 6 years. I guess there should be a good balance of males and females. The air smells better too. Job scope seems challenging. Work long hrs, meeting up clients, working with internal and external, many coordination. But, do I care? I dun know. I just want a change and challenge myself, push myself and see where are my limits. I need to be hard on myself so that I can be numb. Numb to everyone. I want to focus and focus and narrow and narrow further. Hopefully I will get this offer.
I am like a runner on the treadmill, I run and run all day 24 hrs. Fatigue will alarm when my limits reached the peak. I work, I write, I paint, I shop, I watch tv, I reads all day. I have lost my identity, or this is the real me?
Whatever it is, its a change soon...I hope.
I am like a runner on the treadmill, I run and run all day 24 hrs. Fatigue will alarm when my limits reached the peak. I work, I write, I paint, I shop, I watch tv, I reads all day. I have lost my identity, or this is the real me?
Whatever it is, its a change soon...I hope.
Life is like a box of chocolate
Life is like a box of chocolates
Sometimes you taste sweet
Sometimes you taste bitter
Sometimes you taste bitter sweet
Sometimes you taste sweet bitter
You will enjoy every bite
Every melt, melts your heart
And you just want even more
Sometimes trying with nuts, fruits or liquor
Life is indeed like a box of chocolates
Only when you open the cover
Then you will see the assorted roads lying before your eyes
And you'll try with every bite
Just like how we have to enjoy every rides of life.
Sometimes you taste sweet
Sometimes you taste bitter
Sometimes you taste bitter sweet
Sometimes you taste sweet bitter
You will enjoy every bite
Every melt, melts your heart
And you just want even more
Sometimes trying with nuts, fruits or liquor
Life is indeed like a box of chocolates
Only when you open the cover
Then you will see the assorted roads lying before your eyes
And you'll try with every bite
Just like how we have to enjoy every rides of life.
If ever again......
It startled me everytime the phone rings, the sms goes beeped
I shivered and walked away when I see your message
I dun know how to face you and what model answer should I give you
But never regret knowing you.
Was there anything meant to be in the 1st place for us to be?
Everyone says we were seperate by an ocean, a great difference, no common, will never be together, even if we try.
But there is always something common, and only you and I knows this secret
And that we are just afraid to commit, afraid to go thru the swirling uncertainty
We are just too tired, we just have many hold backs, becos we are protective of our own feelings, afraid to unintentionally hurt or be hurt again. We have been confused and suspicious if the good will ever happen to us again, is it for real?
Time was just too short lived for us to know each other more
And show how much we can do for one and other
Things ended adruptly we dun know whether how to continue or should we just leave it, or restart all over again.
I still miss you everyday but afraid.
I still concern about you but afraid.
I still wish to watch a nice movie with you but afraid.
I know I can never treat there is nothing between us I am afraid.
All I wish is your well being and success. You deserve it more than anyone else.
And that is what you truely need in your life, to bring back the joy and confidence and life.
Share it with that someone you wish to be with.
If you ever need me again in your life, I be always around.
Your true friend who will never tell you sweet nothings but give you only facts.
And everyday I move on, doing the things I like and pray I will be in your arms again one day.
I shivered and walked away when I see your message
I dun know how to face you and what model answer should I give you
But never regret knowing you.
Was there anything meant to be in the 1st place for us to be?
Everyone says we were seperate by an ocean, a great difference, no common, will never be together, even if we try.
But there is always something common, and only you and I knows this secret
And that we are just afraid to commit, afraid to go thru the swirling uncertainty
We are just too tired, we just have many hold backs, becos we are protective of our own feelings, afraid to unintentionally hurt or be hurt again. We have been confused and suspicious if the good will ever happen to us again, is it for real?
Time was just too short lived for us to know each other more
And show how much we can do for one and other
Things ended adruptly we dun know whether how to continue or should we just leave it, or restart all over again.
I still miss you everyday but afraid.
I still concern about you but afraid.
I still wish to watch a nice movie with you but afraid.
I know I can never treat there is nothing between us I am afraid.
All I wish is your well being and success. You deserve it more than anyone else.
And that is what you truely need in your life, to bring back the joy and confidence and life.
Share it with that someone you wish to be with.
If you ever need me again in your life, I be always around.
Your true friend who will never tell you sweet nothings but give you only facts.
And everyday I move on, doing the things I like and pray I will be in your arms again one day.
Wednesday, May 23, 2007
Friendster is an excellent marketing tool!
Step one: Include the product that you are marketing for, under your Profile info. (for example, if you are selling artwork, include this keyword in your profile so that others who are search for that common interest or in the similar industry, will be able to locate you!)
Step two: Put a beautiful pic of yours. Be it taken at home, in bathroom, at studio, or makeover, MAKE SURE IT IS NICE. If you dun have a nice face but a devilish bod, flare it and crop your head off.
Step three: Add your product among the list of photos
Step four: Have a nice wallpaper
Step five: Add a catchy tagline (if you can’t get it right, get a copywriter to help you)
Step six: Load a darn sexy song
Step seven: SIT AND WAIT
Step two: Put a beautiful pic of yours. Be it taken at home, in bathroom, at studio, or makeover, MAKE SURE IT IS NICE. If you dun have a nice face but a devilish bod, flare it and crop your head off.
Step three: Add your product among the list of photos
Step four: Have a nice wallpaper
Step five: Add a catchy tagline (if you can’t get it right, get a copywriter to help you)
Step six: Load a darn sexy song
Step seven: SIT AND WAIT
Tuesday, May 22, 2007
Miu and God
Miu was on the verge of dilemma. Life has not been too good to her. So on Good Friday, she decided to ask God, the creator of humans, why her life has been planned this way. She tries to email God. The email got bounced back. She called him on the phone, the mail box is always full. No one guides her. It gets more and more depressing and finally, Miu decided it’s too much for her to bear. With the pair of scissors in her hand, she snipped off her head and it rolled to the end…
So the next morning, among the mist, Miu's spirit saw a human-like figurine, with wavy long hair and in white robe. “Oh! God!” She shouted out. The figurine became clearer and clearer as Miu floats closer and closer.
“Yes, my child, how can I help you?” The figurine replied.
“Wha liow! I was looking high and low for you man! Email you, no reply, call you, your message box full!” grumbled Miu
“I was waiting for you here all the while for your questions! So what is your concern, Miu?” explained god.
“No need liow lah! I was still thinking whether I should give up my life or should I live but you never answer any of my distress calls and now I am already dead!” cried Miu
"You know why? COS I DON'T WORK ON MY PUBLIC HOLIDAY!!!!" he shouted back....
So the next morning, among the mist, Miu's spirit saw a human-like figurine, with wavy long hair and in white robe. “Oh! God!” She shouted out. The figurine became clearer and clearer as Miu floats closer and closer.
“Yes, my child, how can I help you?” The figurine replied.
“Wha liow! I was looking high and low for you man! Email you, no reply, call you, your message box full!” grumbled Miu
“I was waiting for you here all the while for your questions! So what is your concern, Miu?” explained god.
“No need liow lah! I was still thinking whether I should give up my life or should I live but you never answer any of my distress calls and now I am already dead!” cried Miu
"You know why? COS I DON'T WORK ON MY PUBLIC HOLIDAY!!!!" he shouted back....
All these happened in 3 hrs
I was actually physically drop dead tired. But the thought of having no boards to work on, I am god darn sad. So! The next thing I knew, was to get changed, and took a cab down to Taka to meet Ginnise, my all time accomplice. That was what I did yesterday after work upon reaching home already. LOL!
In my journey, looking through the clear windows, I saw ppl running across the five lanes like they have been in hot pursuit. I saw a group near me, and another group a 100 metres away, and then another, 200 metres away. Challenging their lives against the speed, see who can outbeat who. They all looked in the same direction, judging the acceleration, at the same time, calculating their own speed. Their lives as stake. Smiling and laughing as they run across, winning the race. These jaywalkers. Perhaps more underground tunnels or overhead bridges?? Or shoppers are just plain lazy?
Upon reaching Art Friend, I chosed the biggest board. Have I been overly estimated myself? Well, if others can do it, so can I. I bought more brushes, more colors. This time, I want this to be a board of colors!!!
Then on my way walking towards the mrt station, I saw this oversized guy, forcing his index finger and "raping" his own nostril in the public. No one stopped him. He must have felt like heaven, but I was disgusted. Cos although I was looking at him, he care less and continue digging away in a carefree manner. It lasted for a few seconds. It was as if, if he cannot get the "gold" out from his "gold mine", he will never ever give up! (Never say die!). And alast! The ordeal ended for his nostril, with him wiping his finger onto his tee shirt.......
And yes! I took train home. There was no place for us to seat. The fragrance emitted from their underarm nearly got me killed. The oily smell from their hair is diffusing like a fragrance dispenser, every one, two min, it follows the direction of the aircon blowing and enters into my nostril, invading my lungs. And the worst part is being surrounded by the group of the same kind. The mixture of smells seemed to make my head go merry go round, and round and round, and around the coconut tree...... yes, I am a spoilt brat. God Darn Spoilt! But I have no choice, I am just paranoid with smells and bad smell will really make me puke.
In the end I have to alight a few stops earlier and took a cab home instead. By the time I settled down at home, it's too late to start painting cos once I start, I go non stop...............in the end, I went to go for my third bath and on my aircon, tidy up the place abit and chatted online, waiting for my eyes to close and go to sleep.
In my journey, looking through the clear windows, I saw ppl running across the five lanes like they have been in hot pursuit. I saw a group near me, and another group a 100 metres away, and then another, 200 metres away. Challenging their lives against the speed, see who can outbeat who. They all looked in the same direction, judging the acceleration, at the same time, calculating their own speed. Their lives as stake. Smiling and laughing as they run across, winning the race. These jaywalkers. Perhaps more underground tunnels or overhead bridges?? Or shoppers are just plain lazy?
Upon reaching Art Friend, I chosed the biggest board. Have I been overly estimated myself? Well, if others can do it, so can I. I bought more brushes, more colors. This time, I want this to be a board of colors!!!
Then on my way walking towards the mrt station, I saw this oversized guy, forcing his index finger and "raping" his own nostril in the public. No one stopped him. He must have felt like heaven, but I was disgusted. Cos although I was looking at him, he care less and continue digging away in a carefree manner. It lasted for a few seconds. It was as if, if he cannot get the "gold" out from his "gold mine", he will never ever give up! (Never say die!). And alast! The ordeal ended for his nostril, with him wiping his finger onto his tee shirt.......
And yes! I took train home. There was no place for us to seat. The fragrance emitted from their underarm nearly got me killed. The oily smell from their hair is diffusing like a fragrance dispenser, every one, two min, it follows the direction of the aircon blowing and enters into my nostril, invading my lungs. And the worst part is being surrounded by the group of the same kind. The mixture of smells seemed to make my head go merry go round, and round and round, and around the coconut tree...... yes, I am a spoilt brat. God Darn Spoilt! But I have no choice, I am just paranoid with smells and bad smell will really make me puke.
In the end I have to alight a few stops earlier and took a cab home instead. By the time I settled down at home, it's too late to start painting cos once I start, I go non stop...............in the end, I went to go for my third bath and on my aircon, tidy up the place abit and chatted online, waiting for my eyes to close and go to sleep.
Monday, May 21, 2007
The eye
The eye that sees thru lies
The eye that bleeds when cry
The eye that looks in terror and in fright
This is my eye...
This is another artwork I did in say, 5 hrs. Its not very ideal of what I have in mind but nevertheless, I will improve over the time. Life is not about sweating over the small stuff or blaming about the imperfection. Life is about enjoying the process. Do you enjoy your process? Or still worrying about tomorrow? If tomorrow never comes, why worry? We cant undo past, we cant foresee future, we make a difference in the presence.
I love everybody. :) Just a sentimental me.
The eye that bleeds when cry
The eye that looks in terror and in fright
This is my eye...
This is another artwork I did in say, 5 hrs. Its not very ideal of what I have in mind but nevertheless, I will improve over the time. Life is not about sweating over the small stuff or blaming about the imperfection. Life is about enjoying the process. Do you enjoy your process? Or still worrying about tomorrow? If tomorrow never comes, why worry? We cant undo past, we cant foresee future, we make a difference in the presence.
I love everybody. :) Just a sentimental me.
Sunday, May 20, 2007
A poem named "Encouragement"
Was it a mistake to have let you go?
Was it a regret to have let you go?
Was it a lost to have let you go?
Was it my fault to have not been strong?
Please take good care of yourself cos nobody will
Please believe in yourself cos nobody will
And all your will is in your mind
It is a powerful controller which either save or abandon you
You are never what you thought you are
You are kind, you are encouraging, you are you. You are unique.
No one can ever replace you.
Please stop thinking you are worthless
Even if you don help yourself but do me a favor by loving yourself a little more.
Your well being is more impt than anything else in this world.
Give me a reason to assure that I have not make the wrong choice to have let you go.
I have live well for you too. For your sake I live well everyday. No one wish to hope to see your downfall. At least not me at all.
Anytime you are ready to need a shoulder to cry on, my shoulders are still strong. Break this cycle and just dont give up on yourself anymore...
Was it a regret to have let you go?
Was it a lost to have let you go?
Was it my fault to have not been strong?
Please take good care of yourself cos nobody will
Please believe in yourself cos nobody will
And all your will is in your mind
It is a powerful controller which either save or abandon you
You are never what you thought you are
You are kind, you are encouraging, you are you. You are unique.
No one can ever replace you.
Please stop thinking you are worthless
Even if you don help yourself but do me a favor by loving yourself a little more.
Your well being is more impt than anything else in this world.
Give me a reason to assure that I have not make the wrong choice to have let you go.
I have live well for you too. For your sake I live well everyday. No one wish to hope to see your downfall. At least not me at all.
Anytime you are ready to need a shoulder to cry on, my shoulders are still strong. Break this cycle and just dont give up on yourself anymore...
Things happen when you least expected!
Was at Far East to get a quick cut. My stylist was blaming me for not seeing me for so long and me, still not keen to highlight my hair. I said, you psycho my mum the next time she comes to perm her hair loh. LOL! Yes! My parents do not like us to dye hair. Apparently, dye or not, it does not matter much to me. But maybe the next time I visit my stylist again, I may just let her highlight it to make her happy. If I can bring happiness to others, why not?
Was in this shoe store when I met her. I walked and came face to face with her. Our eyes met and I saw that familiar "chocolate chips" (yes! its still there!!!) on her. My blank went blank for a second. My heart was excited. I could not believe it happen. She is the same like how her photo has shown. No charisma, no character, no style, no, nothing. I could not believe my eyes. Did I just met her??????? I continue a few steps more and saw her mini eyed friend. I confirmed, plus guarantee, plus chop that I have met them. Face to face in a store. I knew this day will come. I have to quickly tell this to ginnise who was standing a few steps away. I do not know whether she recognise me or not. But glad I was not shabbily dressed. The hokkien saying goes "su lang, su bin, buay su sey". I proved this saying right today. LOL!! And this has some how forecasted that I will walk in the street and meet that happy couple one of these days too. How will I have react? I guess I will laugh and walk away. :) Direct confrontation was never my style unless I am damn pissed.
And I am good today!! Never buy anything except for food. Yes, every girls carry paper shopping bags, I was carrying a plastic bag containing chicken chop, which later i hid in my bag. LOL! I am damn unglam lass.
Watched Spidy at Cineleisure. The Cine which I dread going now. But still I went. After movie, Ginnise and I rested our feet and grab some bites. And now, I am back home blogging out this entry right after my bath because I just could not believe it happened. The least you expect to happen, happened when you least expected it to.
I am glad I saw you today, girls. I felt exceptionally pretty today. Thanks for making my day.
Was in this shoe store when I met her. I walked and came face to face with her. Our eyes met and I saw that familiar "chocolate chips" (yes! its still there!!!) on her. My blank went blank for a second. My heart was excited. I could not believe it happen. She is the same like how her photo has shown. No charisma, no character, no style, no, nothing. I could not believe my eyes. Did I just met her??????? I continue a few steps more and saw her mini eyed friend. I confirmed, plus guarantee, plus chop that I have met them. Face to face in a store. I knew this day will come. I have to quickly tell this to ginnise who was standing a few steps away. I do not know whether she recognise me or not. But glad I was not shabbily dressed. The hokkien saying goes "su lang, su bin, buay su sey". I proved this saying right today. LOL!! And this has some how forecasted that I will walk in the street and meet that happy couple one of these days too. How will I have react? I guess I will laugh and walk away. :) Direct confrontation was never my style unless I am damn pissed.
And I am good today!! Never buy anything except for food. Yes, every girls carry paper shopping bags, I was carrying a plastic bag containing chicken chop, which later i hid in my bag. LOL! I am damn unglam lass.
Watched Spidy at Cineleisure. The Cine which I dread going now. But still I went. After movie, Ginnise and I rested our feet and grab some bites. And now, I am back home blogging out this entry right after my bath because I just could not believe it happened. The least you expect to happen, happened when you least expected it to.
I am glad I saw you today, girls. I felt exceptionally pretty today. Thanks for making my day.
Friday, May 18, 2007
The wish of a dying man
The minutes of time drag and rotate slowly
There seems too much to be used and be spend wisely
The clock strikes every 360
4, 5 hrs is enough sleep
Walking zombie and work like a coolie
But never feel uneasy
Except for occasional fainting spirit
The mechanics are breaking down slowly
Everyday is a miracle, probably?
All I ask for is to die slowly
and naturally.
There seems too much to be used and be spend wisely
The clock strikes every 360
4, 5 hrs is enough sleep
Walking zombie and work like a coolie
But never feel uneasy
Except for occasional fainting spirit
The mechanics are breaking down slowly
Everyday is a miracle, probably?
All I ask for is to die slowly
and naturally.
All because of you by Ne Yo
[Verse 1:]
Want to, but I can’t help it
I love the way it feels,
It’s got me stuck between my fantasy and what is real
I need it when I want it, I want it when I don’t
Tell myself I’ll stop everyday, knowin’ that I won't
[Bridge:]
I got a problem and I don’t know what to do about it
Even if I did, I don’t know if I would quit but I doubt it
I’m taken by the thought of it, and I know this much is true
Baby, you have become my addiction, I’m so strung out on you
I can barely move but I like it
[Chorus:]
And it’s all because of you [3X]
And it’s all because…
Never get enough,
She’s the sweetest drug
[Verse 2:]
Think of it every second
I can't get nothing done,
Only concern is the next time, I’m gonna get me some
Know I should stay away from, cause it's no good for me
I try and try but my obsession wont let me leave
[Bridge:]
I got a problem and I don’t know what to do about it
Even if I did, I don’t know if I would quit but I doubt it
I’m taken by the thought of it, and I know this much is true
Baby, you have become my addiction, I’m so strung out on you
I can barely move but I like it
[Chorus:]
And it’s all because of you (all because of you) [3X]
And it’s all because…
Never get enough,
She’s the sweetest drug
Ain’t no doubt, so strung out [2X]
Over you, over you, over you
Because of you,
And it’s all because of you,
Never get enough
She’s the sweetest drug, she’s the sweetest drug
Want to, but I can’t help it
I love the way it feels,
It’s got me stuck between my fantasy and what is real
I need it when I want it, I want it when I don’t
Tell myself I’ll stop everyday, knowin’ that I won't
[Bridge:]
I got a problem and I don’t know what to do about it
Even if I did, I don’t know if I would quit but I doubt it
I’m taken by the thought of it, and I know this much is true
Baby, you have become my addiction, I’m so strung out on you
I can barely move but I like it
[Chorus:]
And it’s all because of you [3X]
And it’s all because…
Never get enough,
She’s the sweetest drug
[Verse 2:]
Think of it every second
I can't get nothing done,
Only concern is the next time, I’m gonna get me some
Know I should stay away from, cause it's no good for me
I try and try but my obsession wont let me leave
[Bridge:]
I got a problem and I don’t know what to do about it
Even if I did, I don’t know if I would quit but I doubt it
I’m taken by the thought of it, and I know this much is true
Baby, you have become my addiction, I’m so strung out on you
I can barely move but I like it
[Chorus:]
And it’s all because of you (all because of you) [3X]
And it’s all because…
Never get enough,
She’s the sweetest drug
Ain’t no doubt, so strung out [2X]
Over you, over you, over you
Because of you,
And it’s all because of you,
Never get enough
She’s the sweetest drug, she’s the sweetest drug
Global warming, the ice are thawing
I was reading this article in the national geographic “The Big Thaw” and suddenly realized that end of the world, is it really happening? The sudden realization kind of made me worried. Well, many of us may not be living long enough to witness that day when it comes, but certainly, the thought of it would have make have made many of us terrified.
Global warming. You may have read news reporting but how many of us have really thought about it? We have always been living in the warm seasons all year round, we may not have feel the danger approaching. The glorious days are over. You may have skied in Bolivia, but now it has become a land of death spiral. Slabs of ice are melting, and melting fast, faster than the researchers could even foresee. The ice sheet is stirring, the sea level is rising.
In years to come, our main worry will not be shortage of water consumption for all the livings but, coping with the directions of these fluids. Will many of the countries be drown and submerge under the raising sea level? What can be done to minimize losses and death? Which will be the surviving plot of lands or countries or will there even be left with any? And how to accommodate all the livings onto these limited lands? Killings for survival? War to declare victory over these pathetic lands? And will there be any more polar bears? Will the globe become a sphere of fluid? Will we move to another planet? Will all beings live under the sea or non living will ever be found on earth again, marking the day of the end of the world?
Instead of ways to purifying water, perhaps its time to start research on how to freeze these melted fluid into solid state again and store for future usage? And perhaps its time to plan a trip to these cold countries before they become just greenery? And maybe its time to learn, swimming?
Global warming. You may have read news reporting but how many of us have really thought about it? We have always been living in the warm seasons all year round, we may not have feel the danger approaching. The glorious days are over. You may have skied in Bolivia, but now it has become a land of death spiral. Slabs of ice are melting, and melting fast, faster than the researchers could even foresee. The ice sheet is stirring, the sea level is rising.
In years to come, our main worry will not be shortage of water consumption for all the livings but, coping with the directions of these fluids. Will many of the countries be drown and submerge under the raising sea level? What can be done to minimize losses and death? Which will be the surviving plot of lands or countries or will there even be left with any? And how to accommodate all the livings onto these limited lands? Killings for survival? War to declare victory over these pathetic lands? And will there be any more polar bears? Will the globe become a sphere of fluid? Will we move to another planet? Will all beings live under the sea or non living will ever be found on earth again, marking the day of the end of the world?
Instead of ways to purifying water, perhaps its time to start research on how to freeze these melted fluid into solid state again and store for future usage? And perhaps its time to plan a trip to these cold countries before they become just greenery? And maybe its time to learn, swimming?
Thursday, May 17, 2007
A grand finale
The convict, who was the sinner in the eyes of beholders
The one, whom many believe, has committed crime
The hero tossed her into the cold dark cell
Pointed a finger and announced
“You, sinful tramp!! I had enough!”
In confusion over what she has been charged
Hugging her knees close to her breast
She curled up in that corner of the cell
Where she could tell
It’s the safest and warmest she felt
Awaited for the fate she would have to be dealt
Thinking over and over again
What went wrong and what hurt she had inflicted
No one advises, no one will hint, no one can tell
She become the plague her friends shunned
They agree she was sinner who should be charged
Who should face the sentence for committing the crime
The unspoken violated her mind every night
Telling her tales and said mockery was her fate
The deafening silence was her companion
Alone in the dark, she cried for explanation and hoped the ordeal would come to an end
The mobsters protested “SHE SHOULD BE HANGED!”
The hero put on his robe and wore on the wig
And there she stood in front of him, with handcuffs on her wrists
The hero announced “YES! YOU SHOULD BE HANGED!”
Still not knowing what she had sinned
She was thrown back in the cold dark cell
The mobsters and friends cheered “Victory to the hero and all!”
She still do not know what she had sinned
The night crawled and like a blind falling into her cell
The hero unrobed, removed his wig and faced her alone in her own hell
“SORRY, I HAVE BEEN CONFUSED, I WILL REDRESS YOUR CRIMES FOR YOU”
He seemed to have shone her a way
She saw hope and optimism when she looked upon the tiny window
Anticipated for her release one day
The unspoken violated her mind again
Hammering tales and said mockery was still her fate
The deafening silence was still her only companion
Alone in the dark, she cried and prayed
She hoped the ordeal would come to an end
She believed liberate would be one of the days
Then again she was brought to him face to face
The mobsters sneered and jeered all the way
She looked at the hero with hope shone through like rays
The hero, who was the judge, stared back in gay
“SORRY, YOU SHOULD BE HANGED!”
The rays became spikes from the iceberg
Raining into her throbbing heart
In blanks she stared into his shimmering eyes
She could not believe what he had just said
The mobsters thrust her to the last phase
The rope was her ending fate
They twined it around her long neck and scuttled away
The hero appeared and held on to the trigger, which supposed to end her stay
She took her final breath and resigned to meet her doom’s day
Her legs hanging, she could not feel the woody bay
Her last struggle became a grand finale.
The one, whom many believe, has committed crime
The hero tossed her into the cold dark cell
Pointed a finger and announced
“You, sinful tramp!! I had enough!”
In confusion over what she has been charged
Hugging her knees close to her breast
She curled up in that corner of the cell
Where she could tell
It’s the safest and warmest she felt
Awaited for the fate she would have to be dealt
Thinking over and over again
What went wrong and what hurt she had inflicted
No one advises, no one will hint, no one can tell
She become the plague her friends shunned
They agree she was sinner who should be charged
Who should face the sentence for committing the crime
The unspoken violated her mind every night
Telling her tales and said mockery was her fate
The deafening silence was her companion
Alone in the dark, she cried for explanation and hoped the ordeal would come to an end
The mobsters protested “SHE SHOULD BE HANGED!”
The hero put on his robe and wore on the wig
And there she stood in front of him, with handcuffs on her wrists
The hero announced “YES! YOU SHOULD BE HANGED!”
Still not knowing what she had sinned
She was thrown back in the cold dark cell
The mobsters and friends cheered “Victory to the hero and all!”
She still do not know what she had sinned
The night crawled and like a blind falling into her cell
The hero unrobed, removed his wig and faced her alone in her own hell
“SORRY, I HAVE BEEN CONFUSED, I WILL REDRESS YOUR CRIMES FOR YOU”
He seemed to have shone her a way
She saw hope and optimism when she looked upon the tiny window
Anticipated for her release one day
The unspoken violated her mind again
Hammering tales and said mockery was still her fate
The deafening silence was still her only companion
Alone in the dark, she cried and prayed
She hoped the ordeal would come to an end
She believed liberate would be one of the days
Then again she was brought to him face to face
The mobsters sneered and jeered all the way
She looked at the hero with hope shone through like rays
The hero, who was the judge, stared back in gay
“SORRY, YOU SHOULD BE HANGED!”
The rays became spikes from the iceberg
Raining into her throbbing heart
In blanks she stared into his shimmering eyes
She could not believe what he had just said
The mobsters thrust her to the last phase
The rope was her ending fate
They twined it around her long neck and scuttled away
The hero appeared and held on to the trigger, which supposed to end her stay
She took her final breath and resigned to meet her doom’s day
Her legs hanging, she could not feel the woody bay
Her last struggle became a grand finale.
In dreams we became friends?!?!?!?
The later the night has become. I slept at 2:30am yesterday. Was chatting away about my past to a friend and I guess I got too carried away.
After the conversation, I started to dream away. I dreamt that she and I became friends. She have cut her hair. She asked me for comment. I said should have rebond before cutting it away. She said it meant to be a bob style hair. I even showed my concern, advising her what health drinks to take.
In dreams I was thinking to myself, if she ever finds out I am the ex of her friend's bf, how will she have treat me? The dream felt real. My friendliness and care for her seemed real for like a good time old friend. Perhaps sometimes I do pity her while reading her blog away. She seems like a b**** (as always to me) but naive in her own ways.
I dreamt away, becoming one of them. In dream I was their new friend. In dream they do not know my real identity. In dream I became their good friend.
It’s all the late night chats. I should not mention the past again. Pictures were deleted from my pc but found in CDs chucked in my drawer I never realized. When will all be gone? It's hidden everywhere, resurfacing as and when. It's been a year, a good one year. But the cut seems fresh, which seems refuse to heal, which seems to ache, which seems to kill. I still hate was it because I still love? I guess it was just the betrayal and pride which got in my way.
Very soon, I will have to face all of them from the past. Many will be asking the same question, the dreadful question. They will be asking how have I progress. I have got to be interrogated again and again, repeating the same old answer, explaining why we were no longer together, what actually happen. Replaying flashes again and again. I will have to see that look in their face. I guess it felt like being violated again and again.
I wish not to attend but it is a once a life time event. Both are my best-est friends. I will have to attend and witness and share their joy with them. The rest I wish I am invisible to them.
What are those friends to me anyway? It's an open ended question. We will never get an answer. And when we are tired of seeking answers, we accept whatever.
Wednesday, May 16, 2007
Survival skills hopefully to be put on test
I wanna bring my survival skills to test. I spotted this position, a teaching post in Ho Chi Minh City. I have sent my resume and hopefully they will be replying me to arrange for an interview. I have not been to Vietnam before, and my traveling experiences are “private limited”. But reading online helps to give me a clearer picture of Vietnam. Anyway, a lot of things will have to be on the job training and adaptation will only be able to judge when I am there. Practical is always better than theoretical theory.
The cool seasons are likely to be in Nov to Jan. Warm season in Feb to May, June to Oct probably will be the monsoon season, occasional typhoon in the rainy season to be expected. Common language would be their Vietnam (their official language), English, Mandarin and French.
The opening is for a 2 years bond. Is that a long period away from Singapore? Well, it’s just maybe spending two Christmas there and I will be back. LOL! That was what I think. I dun know if I will be given this opportunity. But if I have not sent out my resume to them, I will never know. Even if the terms and conditions and benefits offered are not ideal, at least I asked and tried. So yes! Looking forward to hearing from them.
Uncertainty is no doubt about it. Home sick there is no doubt about it. But regardless, it will be a lifetime experience. It’s just getting used to it. Nothing is easy at the start of everything new. Hope for the best but always prepare for the worst!
So, I hope and I pray! They will contact me today!!!
The cool seasons are likely to be in Nov to Jan. Warm season in Feb to May, June to Oct probably will be the monsoon season, occasional typhoon in the rainy season to be expected. Common language would be their Vietnam (their official language), English, Mandarin and French.
The opening is for a 2 years bond. Is that a long period away from Singapore? Well, it’s just maybe spending two Christmas there and I will be back. LOL! That was what I think. I dun know if I will be given this opportunity. But if I have not sent out my resume to them, I will never know. Even if the terms and conditions and benefits offered are not ideal, at least I asked and tried. So yes! Looking forward to hearing from them.
Uncertainty is no doubt about it. Home sick there is no doubt about it. But regardless, it will be a lifetime experience. It’s just getting used to it. Nothing is easy at the start of everything new. Hope for the best but always prepare for the worst!
So, I hope and I pray! They will contact me today!!!
My crazy shopping mood!
Ok! I know I been not right in the mind but I cannot help it! I been thinking about it! I have been thinking about it since I met it on sat. It was something that I always been looking for. Its the right one for me.
So, today in the mid of my work, my mind was full of the floating bubble image of it. I got to get someone to save me. I smsed Ginnise and jio her out shopping. Immediately setting off from my work place I shall do it! I reached Raffles City and immediately zoomed my way to Robinson. Thank god for blessing! The size is still available!! Ginnise showed me another nice one and I tried. It fits well too except probably to do some alteration. So I was caught in dilemma. "I traveled all the way from work is to get the Dress 1 and now I fell for Dress 2 instead" I thought to myself. Thank Ginnise for a brilliant idea. We manage to get a kind lady in the front of the cashier queue to purchase my dresses (in the end I bought both) with her Robinson Card. 20% off the two dresses I was glad to save some money. What a nice coincident that today is the great robinson sale! That makes my trip a little more worthwhile! :)
( dress 1)
(dress 2)
So, today in the mid of my work, my mind was full of the floating bubble image of it. I got to get someone to save me. I smsed Ginnise and jio her out shopping. Immediately setting off from my work place I shall do it! I reached Raffles City and immediately zoomed my way to Robinson. Thank god for blessing! The size is still available!! Ginnise showed me another nice one and I tried. It fits well too except probably to do some alteration. So I was caught in dilemma. "I traveled all the way from work is to get the Dress 1 and now I fell for Dress 2 instead" I thought to myself. Thank Ginnise for a brilliant idea. We manage to get a kind lady in the front of the cashier queue to purchase my dresses (in the end I bought both) with her Robinson Card. 20% off the two dresses I was glad to save some money. What a nice coincident that today is the great robinson sale! That makes my trip a little more worthwhile! :)
( dress 1)
(dress 2)
Tuesday, May 15, 2007
The virus named L O V E
Love is beyond that beautiful face that drew your breath away
Love is beyond that every kiss that blew your heart away
Love is beyond that three magic words that grew the root of faith
Love is beyond that bear hug that calms and warms your everyday
Love is a virus
Love is souless, formless, airless, it's nothingness
You can't see it coming but feel it's presence
You can't stop it coming but feel it's invasion
You can't deny it and can only surrender to it
You slump back weak and enjoy the moment
Your walls will crumple down into pieces
Your naked soul stands in the middle
You became the centre of attention
You walk like you float with clouds on
You smile at your feet while ppl thought you were crazy
And when it leaves, you become an emptiness
You wakes up thinking what you have been doing
You become a walking zombie doing all the soul searching
You stays awake and feel the pieces of life drifting away from your body, minute by minute
You wish to sacrifice your life for the potion of antidote from it
You hope you have always been healthy
But the love virus has been too deadly
Love is a dangerous lethal virus which invades you and me
Built up your army before Love seek to kill your body
And leaves you living forever, in no harmony.......
Love is beyond that every kiss that blew your heart away
Love is beyond that three magic words that grew the root of faith
Love is beyond that bear hug that calms and warms your everyday
Love is a virus
Love is souless, formless, airless, it's nothingness
You can't see it coming but feel it's presence
You can't stop it coming but feel it's invasion
You can't deny it and can only surrender to it
You slump back weak and enjoy the moment
Your walls will crumple down into pieces
Your naked soul stands in the middle
You became the centre of attention
You walk like you float with clouds on
You smile at your feet while ppl thought you were crazy
And when it leaves, you become an emptiness
You wakes up thinking what you have been doing
You become a walking zombie doing all the soul searching
You stays awake and feel the pieces of life drifting away from your body, minute by minute
You wish to sacrifice your life for the potion of antidote from it
You hope you have always been healthy
But the love virus has been too deadly
Love is a dangerous lethal virus which invades you and me
Built up your army before Love seek to kill your body
And leaves you living forever, in no harmony.......
My aimless monday
My 1st interview after been working in my current organisation for coming 6th year. Regardless if I will be able to change and get a new post, an interview helps to somehow gave me an introduction to review my career again. I reached Peninsular Plaza at 3pm, met up the staff and fill up a form. I was given a typing test, had my photo taken, and interviewed by a staff who seemed more nervous than I do. It was a recruitment agency that I went to. Well, direct employment was my first priority though but that does not mean I should close my alternative options. In addition, recruitment agencies has the benefit of having the database of employers who are hiring so it added efficiency to getting a job. Anyway, it was a good experience.
After my interview, I went to Gramophone to look for that Yukie Nishimura CDs again and, well, I made the three staff looking high and low in their store and they just do not have the CD as well. In the end, I left my contact with them and bought Linkin Park and Michael Buble instead as a consolation prize for myself. After that was shopping and shopping at Raffles City until Ginnise called to say she can join me after work. We had some food at Ting Tai Fung, before continuing with our marathon shopping. I was actually looking forward to get a nice sun dress but no rewards. I tried one dress at a store, and when I drew the curtain to show Ginnise, suddenly I saw two staff standing at my fitting room getting me more dresses. The sudden attention caught me off handed and I sort of thought they are too pushy although they may meant to be helpful. But sorry, attitude comes first and I need to highlight to them that no matter how many dresses you can push it right up my nose, I dun like means I don want means I will not buy.
In the end, I spend 100 over on a pair of shoes. And its a third white color shoe wear I have got. Why does it always happen!? :( What is wrong with me again, bing shopping again..
Next week will be shopping again. Hopefully will get to finally catch the Superman, no, Spidyman and I hope money will drop from the sky and knock my head and wake me up and tell me to do more constructive activities!!!!!!!!!!
After my interview, I went to Gramophone to look for that Yukie Nishimura CDs again and, well, I made the three staff looking high and low in their store and they just do not have the CD as well. In the end, I left my contact with them and bought Linkin Park and Michael Buble instead as a consolation prize for myself. After that was shopping and shopping at Raffles City until Ginnise called to say she can join me after work. We had some food at Ting Tai Fung, before continuing with our marathon shopping. I was actually looking forward to get a nice sun dress but no rewards. I tried one dress at a store, and when I drew the curtain to show Ginnise, suddenly I saw two staff standing at my fitting room getting me more dresses. The sudden attention caught me off handed and I sort of thought they are too pushy although they may meant to be helpful. But sorry, attitude comes first and I need to highlight to them that no matter how many dresses you can push it right up my nose, I dun like means I don want means I will not buy.
In the end, I spend 100 over on a pair of shoes. And its a third white color shoe wear I have got. Why does it always happen!? :( What is wrong with me again, bing shopping again..
Next week will be shopping again. Hopefully will get to finally catch the Superman, no, Spidyman and I hope money will drop from the sky and knock my head and wake me up and tell me to do more constructive activities!!!!!!!!!!
Monday, May 14, 2007
Smile
Can I bring you a smile?
One that brings you light when you need in the dark
One that brings you warmth when you feel the cold
Can I bring you a smile?
One that gives you hope when your world crashes down
One that gives you life when you are dying
Can I bring you a smile?
One that helps to lift you up
One that helps to move you on
If I can bring you this smile
Will you accept that this smile is not a mask?
That it will disappear when confusion, fear, anger and jealousy overtakes us
Will you love this smile and follow my smile and brings me the above as well?
I need you to smile
I need you to laugh
I need you to love yourself
That will bring me a smile, and thus this smile on me will brings you light when you need in the dark, brings you warmth when you feel the cold, gives you hope when your world crashes down, gives you life when you are dying, helps to lift you up and move you on.
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This smile is for you........you know?
One that brings you light when you need in the dark
One that brings you warmth when you feel the cold
Can I bring you a smile?
One that gives you hope when your world crashes down
One that gives you life when you are dying
Can I bring you a smile?
One that helps to lift you up
One that helps to move you on
If I can bring you this smile
Will you accept that this smile is not a mask?
That it will disappear when confusion, fear, anger and jealousy overtakes us
Will you love this smile and follow my smile and brings me the above as well?
I need you to smile
I need you to laugh
I need you to love yourself
That will bring me a smile, and thus this smile on me will brings you light when you need in the dark, brings you warmth when you feel the cold, gives you hope when your world crashes down, gives you life when you are dying, helps to lift you up and move you on.
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This smile is for you........you know?
Happy Mother's Day
Morning, sis cooked breakfast for mum (and us too, hehehehe) and I brewed coffee for her. It's MOther's Day! So my mum got this special treatment. After that, everything is back to square one, she wash the clothes and sweep the floor. LOL!!!
Went out for dinner. Mum brought the new Coach bag sis has got for her. She dressed up nicely and put on light make up. We went to Bosses for dinner. It was a 8:30 time slot. Actually I booked four restaurants as I dun know which will my parents prefer. I booked Bosses, Imperial, No signboard and Tung Lok. I know I am KS, but I canceled the rest after settled with Bosses as our choice. LOL!
I simply love their ambience and food. In fact, I have been dining there for a few times before I recommended my parents to dine there. Another reason was, it brings alot of memories. :)
Anyone who wants to try the food there, you must, definitely order this dish, its a fried chicken dice with dry chillies. We ordered a Mother's day set dinner, i think it was a 8 course dinner, and requested to change the dish to my fav fried chicken dice with dry chillies. :)
From the appetizer to the dessert, it was good good good and nice nice nice. I simply like the dishes there. It really suit my taste. Besides the late serving, long waiting, and bad service from the waitresses, I think the food helped to compliment our whole dinner.
Back home, my mum saw the little surprise we have for her, a handmade card (DYI by my brother who has no sense of color combination, but I give him 99% for effort lah cos 1% effort was given to me for writing the words in the card and helping to tie the ribbon) with our well wishes written in it.
Actually whether its a nice meal or a nice bag, I guess what all mother wants is simply sensibility from her children, a harmony family and well being for everyone in the family. So kids remember! Work hard for your career, get the right partner, be sensible! And that is the greatest gift monetary cant buy! I am no saint either and will work hard like the rest of you, to be a sensible daughter!
Happy Mother's Day to everyone!
Went out for dinner. Mum brought the new Coach bag sis has got for her. She dressed up nicely and put on light make up. We went to Bosses for dinner. It was a 8:30 time slot. Actually I booked four restaurants as I dun know which will my parents prefer. I booked Bosses, Imperial, No signboard and Tung Lok. I know I am KS, but I canceled the rest after settled with Bosses as our choice. LOL!
I simply love their ambience and food. In fact, I have been dining there for a few times before I recommended my parents to dine there. Another reason was, it brings alot of memories. :)
Anyone who wants to try the food there, you must, definitely order this dish, its a fried chicken dice with dry chillies. We ordered a Mother's day set dinner, i think it was a 8 course dinner, and requested to change the dish to my fav fried chicken dice with dry chillies. :)
From the appetizer to the dessert, it was good good good and nice nice nice. I simply like the dishes there. It really suit my taste. Besides the late serving, long waiting, and bad service from the waitresses, I think the food helped to compliment our whole dinner.
Back home, my mum saw the little surprise we have for her, a handmade card (DYI by my brother who has no sense of color combination, but I give him 99% for effort lah cos 1% effort was given to me for writing the words in the card and helping to tie the ribbon) with our well wishes written in it.
Actually whether its a nice meal or a nice bag, I guess what all mother wants is simply sensibility from her children, a harmony family and well being for everyone in the family. So kids remember! Work hard for your career, get the right partner, be sensible! And that is the greatest gift monetary cant buy! I am no saint either and will work hard like the rest of you, to be a sensible daughter!
Happy Mother's Day to everyone!
Sunday, May 13, 2007
Follow? Or not to?
I was trying my luck. Trying out that ATM machine since the rest of the the bangalas are not queuing. They watched with their watchful eyes. I calmly and slowly try. All the steps were followed with care, but nothing was dispense. Then I realised there was no money in there. The bangalas must be laughing hard in their heart. I turned around and saw a line queuing behind me. OPps, I have mislead them. Moral of the story is, be smart. If no one is queuing at a suspicious empty machine, its not because they have not tried. Follow the crowd.
I was queuing for mac. I order food and was told to stand at one side of the other counter. I waited for my food. A SMART woman queued right behind me. She thought it was a queue. I kept silence and just wait for my food. After that the staff hand me my take away food, I walked away. Then she realised, it was not a queue. I was just there waiting for my food. Moral of the story, while queuing for fast food, always see the cashier for the word "closed". If it appears, don't queue behind anyone standing at that counter. Do not follow the crowd.
I was queuing for mac. I order food and was told to stand at one side of the other counter. I waited for my food. A SMART woman queued right behind me. She thought it was a queue. I kept silence and just wait for my food. After that the staff hand me my take away food, I walked away. Then she realised, it was not a queue. I was just there waiting for my food. Moral of the story, while queuing for fast food, always see the cashier for the word "closed". If it appears, don't queue behind anyone standing at that counter. Do not follow the crowd.
Friday, May 11, 2007
Tonight!!!
I wanna dance tonight! I wanna dance tonight!
I wanna bond my body close to yours tonight!
I wanna feel the beat tonight!
I wanna touch your face against mine tonight!
I wanna dance and make you sense my drenched body tonight!
It will be tonight! It will be a great night!
I wanna bond my body close to yours tonight!
I wanna feel the beat tonight!
I wanna touch your face against mine tonight!
I wanna dance and make you sense my drenched body tonight!
It will be tonight! It will be a great night!
My coming interview!
Thank God I manage to wake up still for bfast. Suppose to wake up at 6:30am but 7:20 instead. Met up with Alex for a fast bfast at Mac then he sent me to work.
I posted one resume online and got a call in the afternoon for interview. Yuppie! Hopefully will be able to find a job which I will enjoy. I was thinking, to tell them the criteria listed below:
1) Walking distance from my residential area
2) Female working environment
3) Start work late morning around 9:00am unless tranport provided I dun mind starting work at 8:30am.
4) Long hours of work I dun mind, if got OT claim or time off I will be glad to death!
5) No need to PR, no need to see boss, no need to talk to colleagues
6) No need to answer phone calls, no need to reply emails
7) Walking dist to cateria or food courts or eatery
8) More than my current salary
10) Annual Leaves 30 days
11) Medical Leaves 60 days
12) Performance bonus every mth, becos every mth I also will perform at work what, so it should also be a mthly basis.
BUT! BUT BUT! I know only my dream machine will be able to give me all the above listed! So I guess, on monday, I will just tell them I want a 9 to 5 job, starting work early I dun mind, no OT pay I dun mind, work on weekends I dun mind, walk 500 miles for lunch I dun mind, no leaves I dun mind (nono, this one I will mind), less than my current pay, ermmmmmm of cos will mind!
Sigh, wish me luck, I really hope to have a change of environment. And looking forward to see who is taking over my current work! LOL!
I posted one resume online and got a call in the afternoon for interview. Yuppie! Hopefully will be able to find a job which I will enjoy. I was thinking, to tell them the criteria listed below:
1) Walking distance from my residential area
2) Female working environment
3) Start work late morning around 9:00am unless tranport provided I dun mind starting work at 8:30am.
4) Long hours of work I dun mind, if got OT claim or time off I will be glad to death!
5) No need to PR, no need to see boss, no need to talk to colleagues
6) No need to answer phone calls, no need to reply emails
7) Walking dist to cateria or food courts or eatery
8) More than my current salary
10) Annual Leaves 30 days
11) Medical Leaves 60 days
12) Performance bonus every mth, becos every mth I also will perform at work what, so it should also be a mthly basis.
BUT! BUT BUT! I know only my dream machine will be able to give me all the above listed! So I guess, on monday, I will just tell them I want a 9 to 5 job, starting work early I dun mind, no OT pay I dun mind, work on weekends I dun mind, walk 500 miles for lunch I dun mind, no leaves I dun mind (nono, this one I will mind), less than my current pay, ermmmmmm of cos will mind!
Sigh, wish me luck, I really hope to have a change of environment. And looking forward to see who is taking over my current work! LOL!
Thursday, May 10, 2007
Thank God Its Fri!
Thank God its Friday! In 5 hrs time, I will be waking up, wash up, bath and dress up, waiting for Mr Alex to fetch me for bfast together then send me to work. Muahahaha! I know its hard to wake me up for early bfast. I try, I try ok? At least I try!!! LOL!
Hope it's going to be a relaxing time at work today. I have been going thru too much reading and spotting errors that I have developed migraine since sun. I need good rest soon. How good if I rest forever. :)
Sat will go as plan, I hope. Shop, eat, drink, watch movie. Sunday will be the day, Mother's day. Most prob will be at Vivo City. Ppl that dun want to see me, please avoid Vivo from 6pm to 10pm. :) Pple whom I dun want to see, please also avoid Vivo from 6am to 10pm. I will be dining there, dun spoil my appetite. Thank you.
Hope it's going to be a relaxing time at work today. I have been going thru too much reading and spotting errors that I have developed migraine since sun. I need good rest soon. How good if I rest forever. :)
Sat will go as plan, I hope. Shop, eat, drink, watch movie. Sunday will be the day, Mother's day. Most prob will be at Vivo City. Ppl that dun want to see me, please avoid Vivo from 6pm to 10pm. :) Pple whom I dun want to see, please also avoid Vivo from 6am to 10pm. I will be dining there, dun spoil my appetite. Thank you.
Our pact
Time will be the witness
5 years will be our pact
If I am still not attach
I will give you my hand
Stars - another version
Talking about stars, I ever seen stars right infront of my own eyes and when was that? Hmmm....when I was tipsy! Was I drunk then? I seriously do not think so.
Well, I am a bad drinker. I drink only when I am feeling down or when there are left overs to finish. I guess I drank abit too much that night. I doze in my "brother's" car and slept thru the journey. I have never ever slept through in a car ride unless probably if the driver is my dad cos I only trust his driving skill. But that night, I can't helped it. Really hard to stay awake.
I reached the lobby and my "brother" sent me to my door step. Oke, I admit, I am tipsy (not drunk, I am never drunk) cos most of the time he will just drop me off at the lobby. Then came the stars... I walk past the corridor, down the stairs, and I saw stars. STARS, really no kidding. I looked down at the steps, the stars appear in my eyes. They are bright and tiny and they blink and they rotate too!!! They blurred my vision and I cant see the steps clearly. I have got to hold the railing for support.
I reached home and bath and guess what? I puke. Guess I am very tipsy that night. The fact that I can still remember this incident after so long, I know I was never drunk.
Well, I am a bad drinker. I drink only when I am feeling down or when there are left overs to finish. I guess I drank abit too much that night. I doze in my "brother's" car and slept thru the journey. I have never ever slept through in a car ride unless probably if the driver is my dad cos I only trust his driving skill. But that night, I can't helped it. Really hard to stay awake.
I reached the lobby and my "brother" sent me to my door step. Oke, I admit, I am tipsy (not drunk, I am never drunk) cos most of the time he will just drop me off at the lobby. Then came the stars... I walk past the corridor, down the stairs, and I saw stars. STARS, really no kidding. I looked down at the steps, the stars appear in my eyes. They are bright and tiny and they blink and they rotate too!!! They blurred my vision and I cant see the steps clearly. I have got to hold the railing for support.
I reached home and bath and guess what? I puke. Guess I am very tipsy that night. The fact that I can still remember this incident after so long, I know I was never drunk.
You cooked my heart again
Slit my heart and twist the blade
Let me feel the pain
Sprinkle some salt and marinate with wine
Let me feel the pain
Pour some oil and burn it with fire
Let me feel the pain
Add some acid water and garnish with shattered glass
Let me feel the pain
You cooked my heart again
Diamonds in the sky tonight
The night is bright tonight
I saw stars in the dark sky
They glitter through the night
I count one, two, three to nine
Some are dim, some are bright
They look like diamonds reflecting from the sky
They seemed to be shinning for me tonight
They look happy and all in sight
They shines me hope and life
They show me it's another night
I reach out my hands towards them
Hoping to grab the glittering lights
Hope they will lit my path and guide me right
But they smile and wave me goodnight
What a starry starry night tonight...
Wednesday, May 09, 2007
What is the meaning of life
".......In the visible world, the Milky Way is a tiny fragment; within this fragment, the solar system is an infinitesimal speck, and of the speck our planet is a microscopic dot. On this dot, tiny lumps of impure carbon and water, of complicated structure, with somewhat unusual physical and chemical qualities, crawl about for a few years, until they are dissolved again into the elements of which they are compounded" Quoted from Russell
Seeing from this view point, life seems purposeless and insignificant.
".........For Sartre, the crucial truth we have to recognise is that because purpose and meaning are not built in to human life, we ourselves are responsible for fashioning our own purposes. It is not that life has no meaning, but that is has no predetermined meaning. This requires us to confront our own responsibility for creating meaning for ourselves, something which Sartre believes we would much rather not do. We would prefer to live our lives in 'bad faith', pretending that how we live and ought to live are not down to our choice but a product of fate, outside forces or supernatural design."
Seeing from this viewpoint, the idea that destiny is in our own hands, that we are free to create our own purposes, it seems so empowering and liberating.
However, doesnt that sound like an excuse to comfort ourselves by making up a purpose which is no real meaning at all. Doesnt that sound like a pretended purpose?
So what is the meaning of life? Why are we living? What is our purpose? What is it all about life?
Read this book: What's it all about? by Julian Baggini
Seeing from this view point, life seems purposeless and insignificant.
".........For Sartre, the crucial truth we have to recognise is that because purpose and meaning are not built in to human life, we ourselves are responsible for fashioning our own purposes. It is not that life has no meaning, but that is has no predetermined meaning. This requires us to confront our own responsibility for creating meaning for ourselves, something which Sartre believes we would much rather not do. We would prefer to live our lives in 'bad faith', pretending that how we live and ought to live are not down to our choice but a product of fate, outside forces or supernatural design."
Seeing from this viewpoint, the idea that destiny is in our own hands, that we are free to create our own purposes, it seems so empowering and liberating.
However, doesnt that sound like an excuse to comfort ourselves by making up a purpose which is no real meaning at all. Doesnt that sound like a pretended purpose?
So what is the meaning of life? Why are we living? What is our purpose? What is it all about life?
Read this book: What's it all about? by Julian Baggini
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