An orange pheonix

I dreamt a dream
A grey and brown moth flying away from me
Then its wings fluttered and started to fall
Then it turned into ashes bit by bit

It flew higher and higher until I can’t see
Only to return when it transformed into a pheonix

It has a bright orange, lean and strong body
Its feathers were silky and reflective

It led out a squeaky scream, then started to returning to me
I ran away from it. I thought it seems to be attacking me
But it also seems to be waiting to be commanded by me

Alast I woke from my dream
What a beautiful pheonix it is!

海路空三军 BAO KAR LIOW!

Once upon a time, there was a policeman who stayed. Then a fireman walked passed , and an air force who stayed for a while and then a navy one who sailed away, and now an army one loitering around.

Sigh, was it my fetish for uniform or it’s just them who has fetish for me? LOL!!!

And when will the ones in robes coming for me? Or those in surgeon suit? Or maybe it’s the “tong tong qiang” uniform group from 殡仪馆 next on the list?!?!?!?!?!?!

Sigh……uniforms………………..

怪叔叔

"Good morning 漂亮的小姐!"
I was slightly taken aback by this loud greeting when I sat into his ride. I laughed and replied "oh, thank you. 我要去XXX"

Throughout the journey, the symphony orchestra rings in my ear. He spoke and said to me: "Right! just tell me the direction before turning!" Suddenly, I picture him like Willy Wonka taking me on a chocolate roller coaster ride. I smiled to myself after my imagination ran wild, and started directing him to my destination. And every hump we came across, he said to himself "Right..hump! Slowly...!"

Finally I reached my destination safely, no chocolate treats from him tho. 怪叔叔.............

In dream you haunted me

In dream, you came. This time, you were driving, I sat in the backseat with another stranger.

In dream you stopped at a carpark, to let some others aboard the car. She sat in the front passenger seat, looking back at me smiling. I smiled back and shooked her hand. Her two other ugly friends joined me in the back seat and spoke to me. Suddenly we were like friends. Not very close though, but were friends.

Then she alighted the car and asked if I will like to have a drink, she can get one for me. I said yes please, sugarcane one bottle. She looked hideous, with short sprouting hairs growing from her side burns and chin, and enlarged facial pores. I was a little taken aback.

Then the scene changed to a dark old cafe where it's just you and me. The cafe was crowded with many other guys chatting. You sat directly opp me and we were chatting, like reminiscing the past and suddenly you cried and said you made a wrong choice and really wish and intended to bring me to a trip together. You regretted and sob just like how I have seen. I covered my eyes from your view and hold back my tears.

Then suddenly I woke up with my tears damped my pillow. I came back to reality and looked around me. Thank god it was a bad dream, stop haunting me...

Our family day

Sunday was our family day! Waking up pretty late but still manage to catch dad before he left the house for some work to be done. Well! Yes! I have been staying out late that I think he has not been seeing my face for the past few days. Every day I wake up, he is already out for work, every day I come back home, he is already snoring in his room.

So on Sunday! I manage to catch him and say "hello! now you see me!" before he started nagging and say "you also know I have not see your face for some days already?" I laughed and continue eating my bfast, while he gets prepared for work.

Then, the three of us women, in the living room, watching TV, lying on the sofa (my sis occupied one, I occupied one, mum sat on her special chair), simply just lazing around before we decide to get prepared for our shopping spree at Taka. As usual, we had our meals at Hong Kong Cafe (my fav place), and then dad and bro joined us at the table. Then to the departmental store shopping around for bedsheets, tea set, crystal vase, etc. Somehow, my feet were so tired! Walking round and round and round. Seeing such a crowd, esp on a weekend in Taka, esp its GSS now! It really sort of pissed me off a little that I wish I can "poof!" and change these ppl into tiny little soldiers.
It was really a moodless day for me to even wanna buy anything.............

Then was heading home and dozing off on sofa around 10pm after my zinger burger, mash potato and an icecream. This was the earliest bedtime I had...................sleeping right away after my dinner....

Science Centre!

It was a hot day on sat. Blazing HOT! We went to Science Centre after lunch at Tamah Jurong KFC. Somehow or rather, I always feel that the chicken pieces are much bigger and juicer at the Tamah Jurong Branch, esp the original chicken pieces.

Back to Science Centre, my last visit was probably just last year. And Ed's visit was like 10 years ago ? (he said so).

Well! For those who are unaware, the tickets to Science Centre Gallery is 6 bucks for adults and 10 bucks for adults, to the Omini-theatre.


We went only to the Science Centre Gallery and had some great fun there. Good quality time spent and things to learn there!

(you have to crawl and squat damn low to see these creatures which were keep in cages and damn smelly.....)

(how the eggs hatch into chicks...)
(The dinos!)

(R2T2?? Nah! Its RV-17!!)
(lego robots)
(and more....)


(I love to see these the most, look at those structures!)

Then we had a nice dinner at Westmall eating my fav lean pork soup with rice. It was a long tiring day...but! A nice day spent!

You & Me

When a GIRL is quiet ... millions of things are running in her mind.
When a GIRL is not arguing ... she is thinking deeply.
When a GIRL looks at u with eyes full of questions ... she is wondering how long you will be around.
When a GIRL answers " I'm fine " after a few seconds ... she is not at all fine.
When a GIRL stares at you ... she is wondering why you are lying.
When a GIRL lays on your chest ... she is wishing for you to be hers forever.
When a GIRL wants to see you everyday... she wants to be pampered.
When a GIRL says " I love you " ... she means it.
When a GIRL says " I miss you " ... no one in this world can miss you more than that.

(the above is so very me...errr......except for the last two. LOL!)


Life only comes around once make sure u spend it with the right person....

Find a guy ... who calls you beautiful instead of hot.
Who calls you back when you hang up on him.
Who will stay awake just to watch you sleep.
Wait for the guy who ... kisses your forehead.
Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats.
Who holds your hand in front of his friends.
Who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you.
Who turns to his friends and says, "That's her!! "

(will there be such a person, will that be you?)

For all of yous

Have always wanting to share some things with my readers. I have been pretty bothered by these actually for the past few weeks. Many girls would be happy to have countless of suitors. Me too (maybe?). I do like the feeling of being go after. I wonder if that is a way to prove my existence on earth. Well, probably you will think I am an attention seeker. Maybe. Probably I am just confused. I want to prove my worth. And every pursuit brings me to a higher level of attainment, to boost my ego? to build up my confidence? to reduce my insecurity? I dun know. But every time, when I have proved that the certain ppl are interested to start anything new with me, I sort of back out in the end. Many times, I just need to prove to myself that I am right. That’s the furthest I can go. A player am I? well, maybe, I have become. I can’t commit, or choose to refuse to.

There are ppl who want to go a step further with me, developing serious rlship. But whenever I thought of the scenes of being committed to just one person, it sort of freaks me out. So I can safely conclude that so far, I guess I have not met anyone who can make me wanting to commit again. Probably there is one, but too soon to say much at this stage.

The mistakes I made started back dated since my 1st break up. Only recently then I realized I have been making mistakes all the while since then. Meeting new ppl is a wonderful thing for me, to widen my circle no doubt about that. The many things I tried to work things out or back out in the end. Well, at least I tried and found out what don’t works for me. :)

The 1st rlship changed my mindset totally about rlship. I thought, rather to be seriously in love with someone and get hurt at the end of the day, why not I give someone a chance, who loves me more instead? So I started a 2nd rlship trying to work things out. Picturing a nice future.

Definitely, this guy who crossed my path was someone who loves me a lot. My contribution and feelings towards the whole rlship, was just that much. That was how much I could give. I can’t give more as I need to protect myself. I am so sorry that things don’t work out in the end becos I realize at the end of the day, I can’t convince myself. And I do not want to live in someone else’s shadow. And slowly I became afraid of you, I dun know why. Just afraid. Towards you, I feel I owe you a lot. A lot. You were there to encourage me during the crisis period. You were there to bring me to the brighter side of life. You were there all along. I know. But fate either brings two complete strangers together, or further apart. For us, we belong to the latter. I will hope to see you success and whatever you do, do it for yourself and not for others. Never wait for someone like me.

The many others who tries to get close to me after my second breakup, they demand serious attention from me, or my consideration to start anything anew. They thought I am the one for them. But has it ever cross their mind if they are the one for me? Then they started blaming me instead. Either saying “Miu, you suck!” or “It is your loss, Miu” or “Unfair! Why never consider me??!”

Just because I refuse to giving them a chance to start anything, and I am to be blame? Then it always makes me wonder why would it be a loss to me when I never wanted to consider having it in the 1st place? Well, I never wanted to argue on that point. If I decide give up on you, or never want to consider you, it’s simply because I don’t want to. I don’t think you are the one whom I am interested to go further with, that’s all! I dun see that as a loss for myself.

And I know ppl make sarcastic remarks about me just to feed their own ego. I am not going to defend for myself on that. You can scold me all you want, in order to feed your ego anif that makes yourself feel any better. I aint going to defend for myself. And it’s not a sin I have committed if I chose other over you. Simply becos in life, I can only chose one person.

And if you are not the one I have chosen, dun just blame me. We are just not meant to be... and all I can say is, I am so sorry.

Shadow

The shadow chases like an everlasting pursue
Going after me, just like a wandering spirit,
desperately looking for a body to stay within

I run, I hide, I fly up and try to touch the sky with my longing gaze,
but no one can save me from this shadow which was cast upon me, by my own body.

The shadow looked at me, telling me it’s really up to me.
I wanted it to leave, but I am so used to it.

And so, the shadow follows me.
Dragging my feet, I walked with slow and steady pace.

I looked forward with the shadow behind me.
It follows like a loyal servant but hinders me.

My shadow is dark and gloomy.
It has no face just a shade formed on the cold concrete
My shadow reflects the past of unwanted events

My shadow tells me of the imperfection,
blotched my every forwarding foot prints.
Reminding me, and reminding me.
My shadow is here to keep me accompany...

My movie marathons

Guess what movies have I watched for the past weeks? Accuracy of Death, Angel, Drillbit Taylor, Harold and Kumar, Ironman, Made of Honor, Super Hero, What Happens in Vegas and yesterday, I just caught Black Book.

The long weekend was spent going out window shopping, watching movie, people watching and dinner with friends and lots of time spent, chatting.

Friday. Finally met up with Claudiu, who brought along his gf Lenca, and we have this nice dinner at a German restaurant in Vivo. Well, the sausages are nice, but the potato salad was too sour because of the excessive use of lemon squeeze. The worst thing is the whole restaurant was so stuffy and I can’t help it and commented to the waiter saying “It’s a bit too warm in here” and he replied “Cos there are many ppl inside here, Mdm” and then he smiled. I rolled my eyes and was thinking “And all the more they should make the place more comfy for the diners!!” We had a good chatting session, with Edmund and Claudiu talking about diving trips, and Claudiu’s gf agreeing to give me a free swimming lesson provided that Claudiu is able to rent an apartment with the rental fee they have in mind. LOL! Then the restaurant felt a little colder by now (Strange! Probably many other diners had choked on their pork knuckles or dying of suffocation), and we chatted a little more before heading off for our movie, Angel.

Saturday. Went to walk around at Terminal 3 with Ed and ate some snacks before my dinner gathering with Ginnise and the rest. And GUESS WHO I SAW? Well! There is really nothing much to see at Terminal 3 except for some wayang looking SQ girls swaying their big butts in tight bursting uniforms, while their Caucasian bfs are waiting in the car to pick them up or waiting for cabs with them. I wonder why their make ups are so thick becos I think, it will be frightful to a flight passenger like me, if I see a flight attendant walking up close towards with a facial wayang mask painted on. I am really scare that their make ups will crack and the powder will drop into the food serve to me. LOL! Anyway, jokes aside, well, that is part of a job requirement, probably cos thick make ups help to enhance their beauty or probably to draw out what they have been missing on their faces.

In fact, along the way, while I was walking at the foyer, I saw that most of the SQ girls look almost the same with the same make up. And they really need to work hard with their posture and smile. I wonder why SQ makes their girls wear such thick make ups.. isn’t pleasant looking, a part of the criteria? Or SQ is just desperately getting ppl to do the job and any woman will fit the bill as long as their look could be saved by the blue shades and cms of loose powder? Well! I will hope that the poor girls could be given a break! Let their skin breath a little more! They been traveling long hours in plane and it’s no laughing matter, esp if you have to stand and squeeze thru the narrow walk way, bringing coffee, teas (or me?), I think it will be more smoothing to the eye if we can get to see their natural beauty. :)

After T3, we went to Central to meet up Ginnise, Calvin and Daniel for dinner. Was talking to Ginnise, and the boys were talking about army stuff and all..then they joked about the sharing habit I have. Well! That is a looong story… but aint goin to defense myself and yes, I admit, good food I seldom share, excess food I share. LOL!!! But the mochi is really nice I can finish them all what. :P

Sunday. Hmm…what did I do on Sunday? OH! Grocery shopping with mum, and then to City Link Mall to ppl watch with Ed and then watched Accuracy of Death.

Monday? Watch movie again, Black Book at Cathay House then dinner at suntec. The chicken rice at republic is really nice!

And I strongly recommend those who like art films to catch "Angel" and "Black Book". Adious! I am happy! :)

Dance with me

"dance with me"
"but i can't dance"
"then step on my feet, i will lead the dance"
"but i have no legs.."
"then i will carry you..."



:) sweet isn't it.....

The Ten Commandments

I copied and pasted this from a friend's friend's blog and realise, how true these can be and how many from the list 10 I have committed. Read these through and it will actually make your mind think twice, before you tell a person say "I like you", before you want to be committed, before you think he/she is the one.

These are the Ten Commandments I will say, enjoy!


With the divorce rate over 50 percent, too many are apparently making a serious mistake in deciding who to spend the rest of their life with. To avoid becoming a "statistic," try to internalize these 10 insights.

1. You pick the wrong person because you expect him/her to change after you're married.

The classic mistake. Never marry potential. The golden rule is, if you can't be happy with the person the way he or she is now, don't get married. As a colleague of mine so wisely put it, "You actually can expect people to change after their married... for the worst!"

So when it comes to the other person's spirituality, character, personal hygiene, communication skills, and personal habits, make sure you can live with these as they are now.

2. You pick the wrong person because you focus more on chemistry than on character.

Chemistry ignites the fire, but good character keeps it burning. Beware of the "I'm in love" syndrome. "I'm in love" often means, "I'm in lust." Attraction is there, but have you carefully checked out this person's character?

Here are four character traits to definitely check for:

Humility: Does this person believe that "doing the right thing" is more important than personal comfort?

Do I want to be more like this person? Would I like my child to turn out like him or her?

Kindness: Does this person enjoy giving pleasure to other people? How does s/he treat people s/he doesn't have to be nice to? Does s/he do volunteer work? Give charity?

Responsibility: Can I depend on this person to do what s/he says s/he's going to do?

Happiness: Does this person like himself? Does s/he enjoy life? Is s/he emotionally stable? Ask yourself: Do I want to be more like this person? Do I want to have a child with this person? Would I like my child to turn out like him or her?

3. You pick the wrong person because the man doesn't understand what a woman needs most.

Men and women have unique emotional needs, and more often than not, it is the man who just doesn't "get it." Jewish tradition places the onus on the man to understand the emotional needs of a woman and to satisfy them.

The unique need of a woman is to be loved -- to feel that she is the most important person in her husband's life. The husband needs to give her consistent, quality attention.

This is most apparent in Judaism's approach to sexual intimacy. The Torah obligates the husband to meet the sexual needs of his wife. Sexual intimacy is always on the woman's terms. Men are goal-oriented, especially when it comes this area. As a wise woman once pointed out, "Men have two speeds: on and off." Women are experience-oriented. When a man is able to switch gears and become more experience-oriented, he will discover what makes his wife very happy. When the man forgets about his own needs and focuses on giving his wife pleasure, amazing things happen.

4. You choose the wrong person because you do not share a common life goals and priorities.

There are three basic ways we connect with another person:

1. chemistry and compatibility
2. share common interests
3. share common life goal

Make sure you share the deeper level of connection that sharing life goals provide. After marriage, the two of you will either grow together or grow apart. To avoid growing apart, you must figure out what you're "living for," while you're single -- and then find someone who has come to the same conclusion as you.

This is the true definition of a "soul mate." A soul mate is a goal mate -- two people who ultimately share the same understanding of life's purpose and therefore share the same priorities, values annd goals.

5. You choose the wrong person because you get involved sexually too quickly.

Sexual involvement before the commitment of marriage can be a big problem because it often precludes a fully honest exploration of important issues. Sexual involvement tends to cloud one's mind. And a clouded mind is not inclined to make good decisions.

Of all the studies done on divorce, sexual incompatibility is never cited as a main factor.

It is not necessary to take a test drive in order to find out if a couple is sexually compatible. If you do your homework and make sure you are intellectually and emotionally compatible, you don't have to worry about sexual compatibility. Of all the studies done on divorce, sexual incompatibility is never cited as a main reason why people divorce.

6. You pick the wrong person because you do not have a deeper emotional connection with this person.

To evaluate whether you have a deeper emotional connection or not, ask: "Do I respect and admire this person?"

This does not mean, "Am I impressed by this person?" We are impressed by a Mercedes. We do not respect someone because they own a Mercedes. You should be impressed by qualities of creativity, loyalty, determination, etc.

Also ask: "Do I trust this person?" This also means, "Is he/she emotionally stable? Do I feel I can rely on him/her?

7. You pick the wrong person because you choose someone with whom you don't feel emotionally safe.

Ask yourself the following questions: Do I feel calm, peaceful and relaxed with this person? Can I fully be myself and express myself with this person? Does this person make me feel good about myself? Do you have a really close friend who does make you feel this way? Make sure the person you marry makes you feel the same way!

Are you afraid of this person in any way? You should not feel you need to monitor what you say because you are afraid of how the other person will view it. If you're afraid to express your feelings and opinions openly, there's a problem with the relationship.

Be on the look out for someone who is always trying to change you.

Another aspect of feeling safe is that you don't feel the other person is trying to control you. Controlling behaviors are a sign of an abusive person. Be on the look out for someone who is always trying to change you. There's a big difference between "controlling" and "making suggestions." A suggestion is made for your benefit; a control statement is made for their benefit.

8. You pick the wrong person because you don't put everything on the table.

Anything that bothers you about the relationship must be brought up for discussion. Bringing up the uncomfortable stuff is the only way to evaluate how well the two of you communicate, negotiate, and work together. Over the course of a lifetime, difficulties will inevitably arise. You need to know now, before making a commitment: Can you resolve your differences and find compromises that work for both of you?

Never be afraid to let the person know what bothers you. This is also a way for you to test how vulnerable you can be with this person. If you can't be vulnerable, then you can't be intimate. The two go hand in hand.

9. You pick the wrong person because you use the relationship to escape from personal problems and unhappiness.

If you are unhappy and single, you'll probably be unhappy and married, too. Marriage does not fix personal, psychological and emotional problems. If anything, marriage will exacerbate them.

If you are not happy with yourself and your life, take responsibility to fix it now while you are single. You'll feel better, and your future spouse will thank you.

10. You pick the wrong person because he/she is involved in a triangle.

To be "triangulated" means a person is emotionally dependent on someone or something else while trying to develop another relationship. A person who hasn't separated from his or her parents is the classic example of triangulation. People can also be triangulated with things as well, such as work, drugs, Internet, hobbies, sports or money.

Be careful that you and your partner are free of triangles. The person caught in the triangle cannot be fully emotionally available to you. You will not be their number one priority. And that's no basis for a marriage.

You made my day

My lunch for today is: Cai Xin with pork, Sweet Tomato Prawns and Sardine...he cooked again, this time, spilled extra tomato sauce on the prawns. I said its oke and they taste equally nice.




And, again, I finished them all. Clean. :)

Kiam Siah..................of cos will not be expecting you to do this every day but its the effort you took whenever you can that touches my heart (and I know many who read this blog entry will say "its a gimmick of courtship what!! Silly miu is falling for it!" Yeah, but how many of you receive such treatments or even make an effort to cook maggi mee for someone? If you did neither.......all I can say to you is............shut up!)

I can still remember the 1st time someone else cooked for me to try out his cooking skill. He was my sec school friend name Shawn who likes to cook. And I was honoured to have tried his cooking, green curry.

And this time, this someone else who cooked, it is really...for me (although he also cooked extra for his own lunch lah!) But still! You warm my heart.. deepest thank you to you. :)

My personal chef

First.........my kopi O! HOT Kopi O, which keeps me awake.....on a friday evening.



Then today! My black chicken soup and fav pork slices and veggie which you cooked and packed them nicely, and delivered it right to my office.





And I finished them all....till now, I still wanna have another taste of it.....the right portion of rice and soup, you know I dun eat much. They tasted just like my mum's cooking...how appetizing...

Thank you my lovely friend, for your greatest share of concern, that warms my stomach and my heart, with every bit of grains you cooked.

What a bright and sunny day it is!

Ah! The white cotton clouds sailed thru the big blue sky freely.

The seagulls soared in the sky high above, diving into the deep blue water.

The cold breeze touches my burning cheeks, blowing my hair from my left to the right.

I strain my eyes to look at the sun, which beam its ray oh so brightly.

What a bright and sunny day it is!

Whenever, Whenever, Whatever

I am simply, totally smittened by the voice and the guitar strum. I picture of a late night, alone on the sandy beach, cold breeze blowing against my face, a cardigan to keep me warm, sitting alone on a big rock, looking at the light house afar, some light shed from the moon..the reflection on the sea..all around is dead silence and all I can hear is this voice and the guitar strum.....


Whenever, Wherever, Whatever (by Maxwell) Lyrics

Lead me on girl if you must
Take my heart and my love
Take of me all that you want
And if there's a thing that you need
I'd give you the breath that I breathe
N' if ever you yearn for the love in me
Whenever Wherever Whatever
Baby
Whenever Wherever Whatever
Ba ba baby

Wish I knew if I could
Be the one that you would
Love forever n' a day baby ( oh yeah )
And if there's a thing that you need
For you n' your blood I would bleed
N' if ever you yearn for the love in me
Whenever Wherever Whatever
Baby
Whenever Wherever Whatever
Ba ba baby

oooooooo
ba ba babe
ba ba baby

And if there's a thing that you need
I'd give you the breath that I breathe
N' if ever you yearn for the love in me
Whenever Wherever Whatever baby

Whenever Wherever Whatever

oooo aahhh ooooooooooooo

I felt blessed

Muahaha! Dun know what is the occasion today. My colleague gave this to me before he left for home and said "Nah, Zhe Ke Gei Ni Bu Bu Sheng, I am clearing my stock!" Before I can stand up and reject, he has already walked out.

And so I continued working thru...the aircon seem colder each min past...hr past.. Then my friend was nice enough to to fetch me home and deliver the nasi lemak from changi village for my dinner. Its near to 9pm by the time I reach home and munched on my dinner.

Cant thank you enough for your delivery. Thank you, thank you, thank you...

How I wish the hol break was longer...sigh..............

Sungha Jung

He is so cutE! Such a guy even a grown up like me is so attracted to. So charismatic!!

Ooppss I did it, again.......

As per usual, it's a dinner then movie. This time, I volunteered to book the tickets online since I am just so familar with all the online ticket bookings. Happily booked and insisted to watch at Vivo. Friend is oke with it. THIS TIME, I ENSURE I GOT MY MONEY AND CARD WITH ME IN THE BAG. Happily walking to the counter to collect the tickets, only to be informed by the staff "Mdm, I cannot issue you the tixs becos the venue is at Great World City". I blanked out a second, then took a look at the print out which showed "GV Grand". "I thought I booked the GV Max???"

Then sheepishly, we have to make a detour to Great World instead for the movie. Thank god he wasn't unhappy about my blur stunt. I cant believe I did it again. Been so damn fucking blur these days. But friends, pls don give up on me....!!! LOL!!!

An understanding driver

Funny things always happen whenever we go out. I was happily late for my date (well, ppl always think that two person, a guy and a girl is out, it means a date. So! majority wins! Ain't going to argue on that.)

Standing along the road, no cab in sight. Then the opp lane, stood an orange MPV. The driver looked at me, I looked back at him, and our eyes met. He make a turn and stopped right in front of me. The MPV is taller than the usual cabs, I started a casual conversation with the driver, Mr Kenny, and gotten his number, in case of we need a 7 seater cab to the airport whenever our family goes on tour.

Upon reaching Suntec, I happily searched for my money.....then to my horror I remembered, that I transfered all my stuff from my previous bag but forgot my cash and card, into the tote bag I brought out!

That was the worst moment, I laughed and explained to the driver about my situation. He didn't blame me nor force me to pay up, but just printed the receipt, and I offered to write down my particulars for him, and told him I will pay him when I return home and he agreed. It was so smooth sailing, he dun even bothered to check if my ic no. was real.

Then Mr Kenny called me, saying that he is around the area where I alighted. I suggested to him that maybe he can send me home and I could return him the to and fro trip altogether. And he agreed!

So along the journey we chatted again and I apologised profusely for my absent mindedness. Upon reaching my home, the whole journey including the return trip, came up to about 50 bucks. I gave him a 55 bucks to make up for the trouble I have caused. Really felt so guilty for creating such a trouble...and always, surreal funny things always happen when I am out with you. LOL!!!

The Little Prince - A Guide for the Grown Ups

Spotted this which I needed. Yes, I say I need. :P

Remember "The Little Prince" I read? Did I tell you that I sort of did an online search about the book and printed a copy of a write up related to it which provides an explanation of the different characters spoken in the book, and that helped me to understand the chapters in the book more easily. However, as a grown up, we are so used to facts and our imaginary brain cells seem to have died as we grow older. Thus, there is still some tricky parts in understanding the chapters which were told.

So this "Guide for Grown Ups" comes into the picture. I flipped thru the pages in the dark and was disappointed with the one para long write up or a sentence written on each page. Then upon reaching home, I flipped thru the pages again, reading the sentences with proper lighting, page by page, only to realise one thing, and that is "It is not the amt of words to determine the worth, it is the meaning of a word which makes one gain understanding."

Let me share with you some of the quotes"


HAPPINESS

"If someone loves a flower of which just one example exist among all the millions and millions of stars, that's enough to make him happy when he looks at the stars."

"I need to put up with two or three caterpillars if I want to get to know the butterflies"

"In giving, you are throwing yourself a bridge across the chasm of your solitude"

"I was wrong to grow older. Pity. I was so happy as a child" (<-- this sentence is enough to make a grown up cry)


FRIENDSHIP

"Old friends cannot be created out from hand. Nothing can match the treasure of common memories, of trials endured together, of quarrels and reconcilations and generous emotions. It is idle, having planted an acorn in the morning, to expect that afternoon to sit in the shade of the oak." (<--- this reminds me of my bintan trip with Ginnise, my talk with karen in the cafe at Cineleisure during my down time, and the ups and downs quarrels among siblings and parents)

"People havent time to learn anything. They buy things ready-made in stores. But since there are no stores where you can buy friends, people no longer have friends"

"The tender friendships one gives up, on parting, leave their bites on the heart, but also a curious feeling of a treasure somewhere buried" (<-- this reminds me of some friendships I have decided to let go becos of some unpleasant happenings in the past, so far, I have not regretted. But yes, the bites are in my heart still)


LOVE

"The arms of love encompass you with your present, your past, your future, the arms of love gather you together"

"Life has taught us tat love does not consist in gazing at each other, but in looking outward together in the same direction" (<-- oh how i love this sentence, :) )

"Love is not thinking, but being"


RESPONSIBILITY

"To be a man is, precisely, to be responsible. It is to feel shame at the sight of what seems to be unmerited misery. It is to take pride in a victory won by one's comrades. It is to feel, when setting one's stone. That one is contributing to the building of the world"

"A civilization is built on what is required of men, not on what which is provided for them"


FORTITUDE

"You'll be bothered from time to time by storms, fog, snow. When you are, think of those who went through it before you, and say to yourself, 'what they could do, I can do'. "

"The tree is more than first seed, then a stem, then a living trunk, and then a dead timber. The tree is a slow, enduring force straining to win the sky"

"What savesa man is to take a step. Then another step. It is always the same step, but you have to take it"


WHAT IS ESSENTIAL

"One sees clearly only with the heart. Anything essential is invisible to the eyes"

"One's suffering disappears when one lets oneself go, when one yields - even to sadness" (<-- letting go is really tough, but once you have, this is truely what happen)

"Grown ups like numbers. When you tell them about a new friend, they never ask questions about what really matters. They never ask 'what does his voice sound like?' 'what games he like best?' 'does he collect butterflies?' They asked 'how old is he?' 'how many brothers does he have?' 'how much does he weigh?' 'how much money does his father make?' Only then do they think they know him. (<--this is very true. and its a question I also asked myself why no one bothers to ask how my new found friends get along with me, what is their hobbies, what they likes to eat, what are their weird habits, no one really bother to know my new found friends but more concern about their achievments or statistics so to speak)

"It is always in the midst, in the epicenter, of your troubles that you find serenity"

"Experience will guide us to the rules" he said. "You cannot make rules precede practical experience" (<-- this applies always, whenever ppl tries to warn me before things happen but always I refuse to listen to advises. becos I believe, without experiencing what I need to, i will never know what works, and what doesnt.)

"A garden wall at home may enclose more secrets than the Great Wall of China"

"A past event is like a wandering stone fallen from heaven. One can neither move it nor penerate it"

"To know is not to prove, nor to explain. It is to accede to vision"

The series of surreal happenings

The empty toilet at the corner, consist of cubicles with toliet bowls and some are for showers. I patrolled thru the individual cubicles, looking for the most cleanest one to pee. Then I heard foot steps walking in. I wonder why I got scared and quickly hide in one of the cubicle. After closing the door, I realised there was a shower curtain behind it, which refuses to stay still but moving as if the strong wind was blowing against it. I held the shower curtain with both my hands. Then the shower tap started running. I felt a force, pushing and lowering my head towards the water. I cant resist the force. The water runs thru and soaked my top. I shouted "Allah!" no valid. I calmed down and recite "Ah Mi Tor Fuor" a couple of times then strangely I was released, and so I rushed out from the toilet, only to stumbled upon a group of monks and I told them what had happened.

Then I was walking into a canteen, looking at my watch, its 12:09pm. "Time for lunch" I thought to myself. Strangely, this canteen only sells rasin buns, breads, kueys, cupcakes, all the sweet stuff.. I walked out from the canteen only to be surprise that there were many miniature sized puppies, lying randomly on the grassy patch, sleeping. There are so tiny and mini like the size of a lizard, that I have to walk with care trying to avoid stepping on anyone of them.

Then I happen to be in a shopping mall. queuing up to pay for something I wanna buy. There was a woman infront of me, then suddenly two young PRC kids, aged about 6 or 8, squeezed and queued (JUMPED QUEUE) right in front of me. The rowdy boys were sort of pushing and shoving, then looked at me, then suddenly hit me, poked me at my buttock, then slapped my arms and shoved me. I remembered I was damn pissed with the "assult" and turned to the man behind me and complained. The men identified himself saying he is the father of the kids and explained that his kids have some bahavioural problem and then apologised on their behalf. Knowing the condition, I was less upset about it then while the boys were away, I suggested to the man to bring his kids to see a psychologist.

Mins after the man left the mall, while I was still queueing at the cashier, suddenly, the boys returned, charging fast towards my direction, then one pulled my hand from behind, another pulled both my arms and tried to kick me, shouting "why you complain to my dad!" The onlookers pulled the boys away, while I sink my fingernails deep into one of the boy's arms when he refuse to let go on mine.

The pain woke me and I looked around and saw my familar surrounding..thank god I am at home and its just a some series of bad dreams I had!