New Year aftermath

Merry New Year! In case anyone is wondering why I have not been updating since my last post, rest assured, I am not dead, yet.

Was pretty sick since 27th after my infection. Was down with coughing and eventually with flu, which drags on until today. Partly becos I did not see doctor for any prescriptions, partly because my poor health takes longer time to recover, partly becos I am still taking junk food but! No more taking chocolates.

The body is constantly feeling feverish, the finger tips and foot beds are cold. Waking up is dreadful. But I can still shout and talk loudly…only to be caught up with shortness of breath and then falling asleep soon on the sofa cos of feeling fatigue.

New Year Eve is most dreadful for me this year. Despite the fact that I am coughing and dripping mucus, I went to work. Anyway it’s just a half day I will be able to go home for a good rest. My colleague was nice enough, quietly walked over to my workstation with a bottle of “Pi Par Kao” and whispered “You want this? Its good for throat”. I was taken back in surprise and rejected in a friendly way by replying “I got lozenges with me, thanks anyway”. He then showed me where he places his “Pi Par Kao” in case I need it, I can help myself. That’s so considerate.

Finally when it’s time to head home, thank god, dad was not working and was able to pick me up from my work place. That was heaven when I reached home. Slept thru and woke up in the evening feeling abit better. Sorry guys I am not able to meet up for countdown gatherings at whoever’s house.

But not wanting to miss this new year eve, I met up with YC in the late evening. We sent Sis to her friend’s place for her celebration while the two of us dropped by a Jap Rest in East Coast to grab a bite. Then spinning, thinking of what to do, finally decided to go to Tanjong Rhu to try our luck if we can see the fireworks from afar. I laid back on the car seat, adjusted it abit lower for some comfort, feeling cold and weak and can’t talk much. The windows were wound down, the strong wind blew in and comforted me. We saw passer bys riding on bicycles, some other cars were waiting at the same spot as us, sharing the same intention.

I looked at the time, counting the minutes drawing near. I knew it was 2008 when I saw the fireworks popping out right before my eyes. YC drove out nearer along to the road side so that we can catch a better glimpse of it. Slowly the crowds formed. Drivers slowed down their vehicles. Lovers hugged and admired the great works. Though the view was blocked by some tall trees, but we are contented to see ¾ of it. The fireworks glittered before us. They sure looked like “Twinkle twinkle little stars”. It’s really a unique way of celebrating this New Year eve cos YC and I have no intention to plan or confirm that we will be able to see the fireworks from the route we stopped. Glad it happened.

Thank you YC, for giving me such a memorable one. Then when it ended, I saw my friend Jing Loong directing the traffic. I shouted out his name from far and was glad that I am able to catch his attention. Evelyn is going through labor end Feb and I hope to visit her soon. Sorry for neglecting both of you after your wedding. I hope I can make it up. But Jing Loong I have been updating myself through your blog! Very glad that Evelyn is well and healthy!

New Year day was quite a boring one. Was trying to call mac delivery for big breakfast only to be a little too late for that and ended up ordering mac spicy. I know its sinful to eat “heaty” food while not recovering yet but I can’t help it. Was trying so hard to get engaged on the line, I must order something right? Then we helped out with the shifting of the fish tank in the house. Then was sleeping in the living room with my blanket only to wake up in the evening for dinner with YC. I was beginning to eat the ramen when I feel out of breath again. This time, it came suddenly and I have to stop eating to catch some breath. I drew a few deep breaths. It felt as if I am suffocated. There was not enough oxygen to my brains. I am worry that I may suffer a stroke at young age. I mean, it’s getting pretty common these days.

My finger tips are constantly cold and my palms are warm. I can’t walk while talking else I will be gasping for air. Occasionally feeling the shift of my vision and dizzy spells, I have to walk, no, stroll slowly in the mall. Then YC took me to a spin and we went to Changi Airport for a walk before heading home for a good rest.

It was 3am when I woke up from my sleep and I can’t get back to my dreamland again. Tossing and feeling unable to breath properly as if a layer of mattress is covering my chest. And I am feeling anxious. I dun know what went wrong or where went wrong. But one thing for sure, I hope I will recover one of these days...