Preparations

Yes, the days are drawing nearer and I have been staying up late to prepare for the event. Varnishing some of my previous boards, do some touching ups, work on the new boards, designing the tags for each boards, copy and paste my past poems and collate them for the paintings, decorating the signage boards, writing up descriptions, planning the display, sourcing for materials (as cheap as possible), its just so many thousand and one thing to settle and decide and execute.

Yesterday, I stayed up till 1am to completing the varnishing of the boards. Waking up at 7am for work today, then went for a "compulsory work out" with my colleagues (2 ladies) from 4pm to 5pm, back to office worked for a while, then dad came to fetch me and I managed to drag the boxes home. The boxes are meant for the exhibition. I do not know if the boxes will help but at least, the concept is there and I just have to figure it out on sat. In the worst scenario, just leave the boards on the floor! This exhibition has tired me out mentally and physically that I do not have the mood to even watch a movie or shop.

I have sent out some email invites to my close colleague and ex colleagues and ex boss. And the responses were so touching that I nearly cried while reading their supports. One colleague of mine even wanted to bring her flower pot to my exhibition so that I could use it to decorate my space, another one willing to lend out her boxes which she has been keeping for moving house. My spidy and her husband who got me boxes as well..and supporting me (in her own way) to just go ahead with the showcase, Ginnise who smsed me this morning telling me she will make it on the sat to help me with the setting up, Ruifu also.. Sis who helped to buy the boards, do painting with me, helping me to print out some pictures....friends who really forwarded my invite emails to their friends and asking them to go and support...I suddenly realise, actually I am not alone.

My Assoc Dean, by chance, happen to know about my mini show case when my colleague and I was talking about it. She immediately asked me to send her the invite and I did (sheepishly). The next day, she walked to me and asked if I would mind her forwarding my email to other profs and her colleagues from other depts. I shook my head and said "oke, thank you".

Mintues later, I received the email she sent to her colleagues and cc-ed it to me. I am so moved by her supportive words. I guess, she is really going the extra mile for a junior staff like me.

Then, the cold feet started to sweep in. With more and more ppl coming to know about the exhibition, the expectation from them, worries me. I worry about the acceptance of my artwork, I worry about not being able to put up a good exhibition, I worry about being a disappointment, I worry about cockups, I worry again and again. But while I was worrying everyday, I was also working on and preparing for it. I am, also excited about visiting other stores and see what interesting stuff do they have.

What would happen on that day? I wish its saturday now, so that I could tell you more. Till then, will post pictures!

I
am
so
dead
tired
now.