Eliminated!

Its friday!! The news of my resignation seemed to have spread much earlier. I submitted last Friday, another officer that I am working with, is also leaving! She submitted hers on last Sunday. LOL! Great minds think alike. But guess that brings additional headache to my immediate boss (the deputy director). She has no choice but to quickly grab a new candidate for hire, into our office so that at least, there will be an MSO to taken over my current work.

I am feeling so guilty. It seems my resignation will bring additional work burden to others and others who knew of my resignation, some does not seem to be happy. Some were looking at me with weird glances, some become extra nice, some directly "confronted" me. It seems quite a surprise to most of them that I will chose to leave. This office, this building which I can even see from my own bedroom. This place that is so near to my home which I can even walk home after work. But if I am always considering the short term benefits, what will I learn in long term? Nothing. There I chose to brave thru the storm, regardless if I will sink to the bottom or enjoy the floating. It's the process that matters.

I am trying to clear most of my work, also to create a detailed SOP (standard of procedures) so that the next person who takes over will not garang gabok (panick) ! Am I being too nice? Mum says I should give ppl the chance to learn from scratch and not spoon feeding them, if not they will never know your importance at work. That sounds quite true also. Sigh, when I am around, they wonder what am I doing. When I leave, no one willing to take over my work load. If they think I have always been too free, why they do not want to take over my job scope? Double standard ppl who likes to gossip only.

In this office, as long as you walk around hastily, zapping documents, have many calls for you, shout across aloud that you have many emails to clear, you will be promoted quickly. Those who silently work at their own desk, works independently, one man show only, ppl will be wondering what you are doing. If you offer to learn their work so that in case of emergency when they are not around, they will not teach. Cos to them they thought, are you here to snatch my job? To me it's just working efficiently.

As a result, when they go on leave and when things cock up, there is no way to solve unless awaiting the person to return from leave.

When there are counter or phone inquires pertaining to their related work, they will never come to the counter or answer the call. And so, there will always be a middle man, so call a messenger, to pass the message to and fro between the student and the staff. It always ended up in a threesome (LOL!). Sometimes I wonder why things aint simpler. Isnt it much easier for the staff involved to speak directly to the student over the counter? A simple inquiry can take a 5 mins to solve it! Why? Sometimes I really do not understand why.

That is the different mindset of the young and the old. I cant blame them. At their age of mid 40's, some were spinisters, some divorcee, its tough to even think of a switch in their career. I understand the insecurity they are facing therefore they have to grip their seats tightly.

And so! I chose to eliminate myself, and time to find a greener grass patch (probably?) else where. This current place is only suitable for those who wants to stay on till retirement or those with family commitment who needs a 9 to 5 job. A lone ranger like me, who has experienced staying in office till 2 or 3am. What is time to me? I have got too much to spare.