Reply to Sab

Thank you for clearing up but what hurt is done. And whatever said no longer matters cos what you wrote was not what he passed across. I am leading a good life thank you. You will still be the slut or bitch or whatever. What did I edit to your pic I forgot. How many was there? I really forgot. But I guess I did not post the full clear face on my blog, be glad. And I took the time to mosaic the eyes, blur the pic (I think) so that both your real identity will not be discovered. Cant you see I was trying so hard to protect your anonymity? LOL! Damn! Just blame it that your friend is a damn good picture spotter. My blog is so wordy! Put whatever you like, show me the wedding photos too if ever the day comes.

I feel blessed but pitiful of him that he has to be such a loser when it comes to matter of hearts. What done cannot be undone. Evryone sees things in their own perspectives and it takes luck, to let others understand your thoughts or my thoughts cos everyone of us see things differently.

While you are in BKK with him, we are in a cooling off period. We have not broken off. After your blog add was exposed and I read thru, we had a bad fight in my house, afterwhich he said both no longer in contact but then again soon after he said he went for your friend’s bday celebration with you. He said many many many many things to confuse my thoughts and I hate that most which leads me to live everyday in fear. You are a woman yourself, I hope you be in my shoe and understand that kind of pain and anger and agony. And do you know he said you do not know my relationship with him was on rock while he was in BKK with you and your friends? And then do you know he said he wanted to break up and be back to his single life again, back to the time in his poly days when he can do many things carefreely etc etc. Strangely, suddenly he is attach again, and with you some more which he was so firm against the idea of being with you and how much he dislike that idea. What is he talking about? That is the double standards he always practice which I always like to argue with him when I see it happening again.

I will not have been so upset if his new partner is not you. When I knew about it, I felt being conned, again. If he has really mean that you are not the cause, you are not involve, you are not a choice, you are not in the picture at all, you are not what he wanted, you are not his cup of tea, then why will it turn out that his next gf will be you? Again, that is for you and him to know. Maybe its just another love on rebound, maybe it was becos you were there when he was down, etc etc and thus eventually he fell for you, etc etc. Truth or lies is just a thin line. It depends on individual to believe or doubt. I chose not to find an answer and with him now out from my life, I find myself happier and healthier.

How could a guy, planning for ROM and planning to propose on my bday and get over a 3 over years relationship, suddenly started a new relationship so soon after the broken up? And how he suddenly fell and be in a relationship with you when he never will like you and he said it till as in a “guarantee plus chop” die also will not-be-with-you manner.

What is he talking about?! What is he doing?! I dun know, those were my everyday thoughts thinking why why why and what what what.

We really broke off when I find out he still meet up with you and that was the final draw I gave him. That was the final draw cos again, I gave the trust when he said he never meet you anymore ever again. And what happen after I gave the trust to this person who always complain I never trust him? I got hurt, Double the price I paid.

I guess that was in June when we broke up. And when you both stopped contacting? For how long? 1 day? 1 wk? And when both of you started back in contact? Finding time to hang around again and developing into a couple? I guess that was quite a fast hitch isn’t it? What a sudden change in attitude don’t you think? Are you doing some soul searching? Are you thinking about his feelings for you now, again? Don’t be. He truly loves you. Love you to the fact that he could cock up a lame plot to shake his gf off, and give time buffer time, before starting a new one. No one knows, not even you. Like I said earlier, only he and his soul will know. No one knows what he actually plan to want during that period of time. Everything just seems to fall in place nicely. Thinking back, I realize he has been a hideous monster. Dangerous and not a simple man after all. Maybe that was the agreement both of you have. To wait for the storm to clear. I dun know and do not wanna know or thinking over why why why, cos it does not matter. :)

What was his mentality? What is his motive? What is he thinking? I no longer wanna an explanation cos those are not impt to me anymore thus as you can see, I am willing to communicate with you here thru our blog. Maybe one day, we maybe be emailing each other, adding each other in friendster, or even msn-ing. LOL! Maybe, there may be such a day. But one thing for sure, he is a loser in the whole damn thing and there will never be a such thing as forgive, morally unforgiven.

He is damn loser who juggle two women in his hands and wants both sides of the world before he decide what he wants. And when one side is no longer available as a choice for him, he jumps for the other since that is still an open option. And he made the whole issue, you becoming the slut, you you you. You at fault seducing attached men. You who fantasies about him so much. You who desperately needs him in your life.

You mentioned that the handphone number issue was something which you passed on to an auntie and it landed in his hands. Then what about your blog add which was pass to him? Just mainly to show him the GE pics? Or core values is to show him what you have written about him during the GE days how you went ga ga over him? Or was the blog add pass to the auntie again (so as to keep in contact with you?) and dun know why it landed in his hand again? Again, this, only the two of you know. I dont think it is a matter to me anymore.

And again, why your msn blog add was make known to me? Cos he confided in our common friends and he said he dun want to read your blog and doubt your attention and thus pass it to my guy friend , saying "You wanna read, go read lor!" therefore, I got the blog add and given the chance to read about your admiration.

In your blog that moment, you wrote that I was the someone in between both of yous. Strange, since when I become a third party between the two of you when I was the rightful gf back then??? Sab, that was all my doubts back then but really, it does not matters anymore. Everyone has to move on I know, you know. Am glad you took the time to communicate and explain. I appreciate that for letting me see both sides of the story. Now I am damn sure he is jolly well just a loser that’s all. And, even if you spend, dun show him the price tag, dun give him another additional valid excuse to ditch you.

A sister’s words…

I’m the most neutral and had the privileges of witnessing the loser of the century. He said it was you who came to him and gave him your mobile number because you liked him. He said it was you who asked him to BKK, knowing he was still attached. He said he’d die with my sis with his gun should anything bad happens to her! He even asked me out for coffee with Ron to Holland Village and explained that he still loved my sister, and he would not fall for you because you are not his kind.

Throughout the whole ordeal, he put you in the worst light, shaping that image of a relationship wrecker, desperado and shameless slut. It was everything about YOU, and never him.

So take a page from me. Such man is simply not worth it. A man who’s so bad in managing relationships can never be a man who can provide you with any sense of happiness unless you can survive just only the two of you in this world.

It doesn’t matter when both of you get together. The fact is, both of you are already together now. But like my sister, I also wish that both of you marry. At least then, you’d understand what my sister went through. Good luck.