The fallen angel

How many hearts have I broke?
The disappointments in your faces, are written all over, inches by inches.

I am sorry the wall is too thick you cant even see me.
I have been shrink wrapped and no matter how you try to figure me out, you just cant feel the real me.

I cant be my true self else I will break even more hearts
Just treat me like a stuck up lass who thought full of herself

I am a walking zombie unfeeling to your feelings, only with guilt
I am an empty body with no organs, no blood

I dont even wanna give a chance to try
What is trying when I dont have intention to buy?

No matter how down I was I have manage to pull thru, alone.
So why I need someone next to me?
What is there I wanna share with humans?

Anyone out there dare swear to love me with his life?
Slit and let your blood flow out till the last drop and show me.

No matter how fairy tale it be, no happy ending
So what it is to be to even try?
and its true, big girls dun cry.
even if we do, you will never know when and why.

The face just went numb and mouth is dry
and I will just turn and walk away
its just to protect you, to protect you from getting further hurt from a fallen angel like me who is soul-less and faithless and hopeless.

I did all to just protect you. You deserves even much more than a fallen angel , like me, I am a nobody, trust me.