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Dun ask me why or how. I have watched Invisible, Vacancy and Alone all by myself. Caught The Simpsons with Mr Fu ge and I am wondering what else to watch.

I bought a book "Who will cry when you die". The same writer who wrote "The monk who sold his ferrari". It is a very interesting and motivating book to read esp when seeing the strangers in buses is quite a meaningless thing to do. Basically, it is not a book to point out to me who I should be good to before I end my life, rather, it is about motivating one's life to lead a significant life and to reclaim our best life. Though at the end of the day, maybe after accomplish all those I need to do as pointed out in the book, there may be a sense of emptiness and readiness to say "hey! now I can die happily!". But hell I dun know. I wonder if the book has a positive or negative impact on me. Wait till I finish reading it. I'll let you know.

Been staying up late till 5am yesterday night, painting.




This is what I call, abstract art. Basically, what I did was to mix the colors together and create a 3 d effect which is open to your imagination. Some see school of fishes battling in the ocean, some see just splashes of water, some simply see just cubes. I see a tree, I see a fetus, I see dancing spirits. I thought of adding a Van Gogh looking human face in the foreground but decided letting it be a abstract piece of work cos I saw too many things in it.

This morning, I worked on this:



This is not complete yet. I hope I can rush off with the rest but I went to meet up with Ginnise to attend a service at suntec. There was a sudden impact that swept thru me and just suddenly, I just feel like crying and running into his arms. Ppl called him GOD. I always wonder, why so many ppl out there worship and believe in something they never see before. God. Is he real? Is he a he? or she? Is he really been planning everything for me? Is he really for me? Will things really be easy for me?

I am not a Christian but it just feel good after attending the service. I treated it has a motivation workshop to further encourage me and giving me the more optimistic side of life so that I can continue this journey as long as I can take it. Can God manifest in my dreams and swear that he is here for me? Who else can I depend on besides him?

Went Taka again to get more canvas boards. Had a nice dinner and gossip with Ginnise throughout our journey home. Tomorrow is a brand new challenge again. I trust that the worst will be taken care of by the mighty god. Our everyday problem is so insignificant as compare to the size of earth, jupiter, sun, sirius or betelgeuse (beetlejuice as pronounce by the pastor), all these which God hold in his palm, in just one palm. So how big is our problem actually?