I would have been lying

I would have been lying if I say I do not feel anything, only till the point I saw your swollen hand, I realise, my heart does feel the pinch.

I would have been lying if I say things may not work out, when I did a serious consideration, almost everyday.

I would have been lying if I say you are just a friend, when I allow you to hold my hand for that short while, which is good enough right? :)

I would have been lying if I say I dun feel like seeing you, until the point when times you mention you wish to see me, I actually accommodate no matter how late or tired I am.

I would have been lying if I say I do not like your attention, until the point when I was actually thinking, I am enjoying being dote by you.

I think its just fair for you to know these instead of burying it in my heart. Are you that lost key to this icy lock? I wish not cos I still like to prefer it locked for some more time. Just let me enjoy this dark moment a little more! :)

But I like it when you scold me than hearing your caring words. I feel more loved when you scold me for my own good. Yeah, I am sadist. I like to see you in your uniform, yeah, I have fetish for such things, just not in nurse/chambermaid/bunny uniform k. LOL! Kidding! I like to see you in casual wear, which is more of your style and makes you look more confident. Simplicity is what attracts me.

And for all that you have done and given me, therefore you deserve that big hug! and many more hugs maybe! maybe? maybe?! Let me think abt it.. LOL!

I am glad, really glad to have meet you and I cherish you much soulmate. I can get you fork and spoon just don't ask me to cut the cutlet for you to eat cos I am not the one who cause your injury! But I can offer to carry your shopping bags or hold the steering wheel or uncap the mineral water bottle for you oke?

Hope your hand gets well soon.