I am not perfect

I am not perfect. My flaws as you can see.

I hate hawkers for its crowded and that oily smell that refuse to leave my hair and blouse.

I dine at cafes/restaurants is not becos I need expensive food but I need a comfortable place so that I can enjoy my food. I dun mind food courts if its easy to find an empty table. I like fast food restaurant too if you dun mind.

I like shopping, sometimes walking just anywhere but never enter the stores becos I have got nothing I wanna get but I just like to walk and see beautiful things, and also just to be around with the someone I love. But I still prefer to shop alone, less pressured of thinking that someone is waiting for me.

I am fussy with food. Chicken or duck, so be it, but it has to be boneless. I hate fish but salmon or cod fish I still can eat or any fish that does not have skin or fishy smell. Steamed fish can be quite a put off unless its my mum's cooking.

I am brand conscious no deny. I prefer not to wear ki ki la la brands but home wear I dun mind wearing This Fashion.

I maybe branded from head to toe but most of the stuff were not bought by me but my sis who buys and buys and buys alot and no one is using till the LV, Gucci or Prada turns mouldy. You name it, SHE has it. So I have to help "ventalise" those bags by bring them out when I go shopping to "let them breath some fresh air", but also no deny I like those bags too! And what for I buy when many such stuffs are when we really have no where to store and I dun want to add on to the stack of bags we already have prob storing and in fact its lying all over the bedroom floor.




(this is only the say 30% of the bags we have, many more are hang up, store away, under the computer table too)


I do many things base on my mood. If my mood is "hardworking" today, the room will be tidied from one corner to another corner. But it seems never tidy cos we have not many things thus sometimes I also give up trying to keep things neat. But clearing out unwanted stuff is what I can still do.

I seldom help out in household chores now cos I am getting lazy. I am sorry mummy.

I love to go to the book store looking around, searching for philosophy books, self help, or arty farty designs. I spend a half an hr standing, flipping thru a copy of a photography book about grand libraries ard the world, from page one to end, apparently burying my face into the pages for a closer look at the architectures. I like the library too and you can always find me at the design section.

I seldom eat fruits, so you got to buy me fruits, in bite size pls... And I hate papaya cos of the smell.

I go anywhere in cab unless my mood is damn relaxing, I will take train, always with disappointment becos of all kinds of weird smell depending on how the aircon is blowing in whch direction. I enjoy long bus rides say journey must be ard 1hr or more. I ever ride from Jurong to Bedok. or Jurong to Toa Payoh through a single bus journey, then back to Jurong taking the bus again.

I like to stare out at the passing sceneries while traveling along the road, and look up at the sky wondering how big can a sky be.

I hate ppl who lie, or pretend its real but utimately I knew its a lie. And if you test or challenge me to make me jealous, I will repay you back 10times, making you feel even worst. I am a revengeful person.

I hate parties, I dislikes gatherings, I detest crowds. I dun like to PR. I will not join you for whatever functions you need to attend, I am sorry but I really dislike functions. I know you understand cos I told you before what happen during that disco pub.

I will not meet your parents so soon cos I hate parents meeting session. It makes me nervous, unease and too much attention. I hate attention.

I hate to queue up and wait for lucky draw dip, for food, for whatever shit there is out there. Esp for TAXIs or BUSes. I mean, I feel trapped along the queuing line, among the rest. I feel really trapped and suffocated and once that feeling hits me, I jumped out immediately from the queue and start calling for cab. I just I have social phobia.

I dislike to speak to ppl for the sake of talking to PR. I find it so pretentious and unlike me. Any colleagues who walk up and speak to me, I will chat a little then excuse myself. I remembered once this colleague from another dept came up to me and asked me some introduction of myself. At first I was still able to chat a little, then I grew more nervous and excused say I need to go to bank and scuttled off leaving the conversation ended adruptly.

I like to lunch alone when I am at work cos that is the only moment to be with just myself.

I always give a damn stuck up look so that ppl will not chat/approach me. Not becos I am really stuck up, but the inner me was just shy. I just want to put ppl at a dist becos I am afraid to speak to strangers.

I have bad temper but have mellow down abit eversince. And all those accusations against you, you know me, I just like to "ka" you. You know I just like to laugh over that strange look you give. You know I just love to disturb you.

I dun quite like surprises. Cos it seems more like "giving me fright".

I hate wearing heels becos I have a pair of fat foot which limited shoes will look nice on me. And I hate the feeling of not resting my foot completely on the ground. It makes me thinking most of the time I am trying hard to balance rather than walking comfortably. So most of my footwears are birken sandals or flats.

I cry easily. I watch movie I cry, I watch news I cry, I ready books, I cry, I think and tot, I cry. I see beggar kowtow-ing I cry. I am too emotional.

I have no savings for wedding cos I feel that you are the one marrying me (you do agree) and it should not be me saving up that money to marry myself. LOL! But I can save up to buy misc stuff for the wedding for myself so that that burden will not add on to you. LOL! I know you will agree.

We can always eat out lesser, or less patronising to the restaurants, like you said, many good foods are found in hawkers. Occasionally you can buy from hawker and park one side and we eat in your car. That, I dun mind at all.

Now it's your studies and second career switch that are more impt. So take your time to save k. I am not in the hurry. What is long term is more impt than short term. Of cos a decent celebration is still a must have cos we cant replay it again in this life time. :)

But I duh mind waiting for you, just for you. :)