It is a good day today

It is a good day today. Last friday, I received a call from the Head's secretary, asking if I will be free on monday (today) for a meeting with her boss together with 4 other colleagues. I was surprised and asked what is the meeting about and she said she is unsure but dropped hint that it may have got to do with our recent appraisal, maybe some moderations to be done or what, maybe should spend lesser this july she said. I was confused and thought over and over again what she said. My other close colleagues who received the call and email have the same reaction as I do.

So last friday was quite a gloomy day among the three of us (colleagues and I). I mean, why should I be MODERATED because the overall performance of the whole was not any where near? Suddenly, I could feel how a PSLE student would have felt. Its felt like I have got an A for my efforts but was given a B instead because others did not put in enough effort. Why should I be "punished" because of others? It was fuming to think that all efforts done could just be washed away simply because of others. I was upset, feeling unfair, feeling unjust.

While I thought I would spend my weekends pondering over this, I was thankful that my absent-mindedness actually made me spent my weekends happily.

This afternoon, while I was walking with my colleague, we discussed about the possibilities again of the agenda of the meeting. Then again, I forgot about it while enjoying my lunch until the minute hand approached closer and closer and strike at 12. It was 3pm.

Together with 4 other colleagues, and two dept assoc deans and the dean himself, we sat comfortably in the meeting room starting off by saying Singapore is now listed as an infected country by WHO.

Then we moved into the real agenda of the meeting with the dean congratulating us on this happy occassion that the department has identified the 5 of us among the rest to be titled as "senior X X" base on our past appraisal and performance. At that instant, all the rest of the conversation said were like music to my ears because I could finally let down my guards for the next one hour. Although this does not mean a promotion, but I am glad the meeting was nothing worst than downgrading or overlook my performance done for the past one year.

We went back to our desk and work as usual. And days go by like that everyday........