Don insist on helping me this and that when you think you stand a chance to impress me or move my heart with your gestures, and then when you finally get the message that no matter what you do, I won’t consider you, and you started to draw that line between you and me so clearly like we weren’t even friends.
In the 1st place, I never insist on getting any help, nor wanted any from you. You insisted on helping, posting, and now that you know you won’t stand a chance, you threw me the password and username of the website, asking me to load the pics myself the next time. Then, suddenly every cents count.
Have I ever count for every movie tickets I bought? Have I count for every drinks or food? Have I asked for the money 1st before I help you to purchase your wine? As a friend, I spare a thought for your feelings and explained myself every time which I don’t think I actually have to becos you aint my bf. But I did that becos I know how you feel for me, and I have to spare a thought for your feelings.
Have I ever been so calculative? Even though as friends I won’t want to calculate all these misc stuffs. I hate it when ppl become (ACT TO BE) so caring and understanding and concern and sincere FOR ME, FOR MY WELL BEING all just becos they think/assume they may stand a chance, and when they finally realize they won’t ever get a chance, their true self revealed and started becoming an “accountant” and counted every single cent and helps they have given to me.
And I thought I found another confidant who is mature enough to share problems with and understands me. I thought you always say “whatever you have in mind, tell me, I wanna know and share with you” and I thought it was true and I thought you can handle it well until the point when you used those things I told you, back at me. It just disappoints me.
And that’s why I always think you ppl are god damn fking childish and the worst is refusing to admit and become such a sore loser you don’t even know!
It’s not that I can’t live with PPL HELPING ME, but it’s about the HYPOCRITICAL ACTS which I already sensed yet ppl still live in denial, only when I firmly rejected them, then their true selves reveal!!!
SORE LOSERS ARE ALL AROUND ME! DON’T ASSUME YOU HELP ME MEANS YOU OWN ME!
2 comments:
My dear, that's why I told you, sure he won't mind? Men would do all sorts of things to impress a woman he has interest in. Just like a salesperson, they will sell themselves in the brightest light they can be. I never believe any man would always come by, be the chauffeur, without anything in return. OK, maybe not all men, but most men.
At least you stood firm and not gave in. At least now you see the true colours (and perhaps many more in the future). Never mind, one day, I'm still sure you will meet the guy who is poor salesman, and shows you all the wrong stuff.
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