Have you, ever?

Have you ever bath with a pair of watchful eyes on you to keep you safe? Not once but twice?

Have you ever scream at the policemen and CID when they come to know a story?

Have you ever scold and ignore the doctor when he comes to show you concern and tell you the consequence?

Have you ever tremble on a wheelchair and having nurses and strangers staring at you?

Have you ever scream your heart out at strangers when they lend a helping hand?

Have you ever lie there, the needles poke thru you and there is nothing you can do?

Have you ever been alone in a strange room, all alone and staring at 3 empty beds besides you?

Have you ever squat at a corner and hugging your stomach while it turn and toss away?

Have you ever curl up on the sofa and thinking the night away and no matter how much they say, you never hear?

Have you ever feel the fear when someone just pop in and stand at your room window staring then walked out?

Have you ever realise how important a pencil and a piece of paper are impt to you when they restrict giving you?

Have you ever experience apparently so call, forced to tell a stranger no, strangers, about your own story?

Have you ever "let your fingers do the walking" on the handles of the bed when your mum came to visit you and you turn a blind eye when she cries?

Have you ever watch the fan spinning away when you loss sleep over what happened?

Have you ever realise how tasty is the milo?

Have you ever felt helplessness invading you when you have nothing, apparently nothing with you?

Can you ever forgive someone who bestow all these to you just becos he was trying to find a way to protect himself and in the end, make you confused?

For the pride and egoistic me, which has been ripped from me, it will not be easy.

I wish I could become a haunting spirit who follows you whenever you are, bringing you fear and helplessness, just like how you did to mine.