How true...

I read this from a friend's blog. How true it is:

" we protect ourselves from hurt by loving less and ultimately sabotage our own happiness. Even worse, sometimes we don’t even try!"

When will enough be enough. When will ego be put aside and reveal our true feelings? How many times we are afraid of rejection, fear of the embarrassment and hurt.

Ever fell for someone whom you least thought you will be? Ever fell for someone whom you thought was too good for you and you are too afraid to love becos you thought she deserves more than your love? Ever tried loving her and try working things out and suddenly feels afraid that the longer you stay with her, the more you get used to having her around you, the more you feel dependent on her and so you decide to hide?

Ever feel the true happiness, laughters that fill every corner of your heart when she speaks to you, how you could just be yourself when she is around? Ever feel the butterflies in your stomach when you look into her eyes and you just cant help not looking into it? Ever suddenly picture a future together when you talks to her? And after when you realize all these, you become afraid, very afraid.

Ever feel afraid that you will become vulnerable thinking what if one day she leaves you? Ever try keeping her at bay and living in denial thinking that is the best choice for both? Ever try telling her she should move on and then suffer in silence that you wish she stays with you by your side?

Ever try playing mind games with the someone you fell for, making her reveal more of her feelings for you before you summon your courage to admit you love her? Have you ever play the tug of war game, wanting but dare not want? Giving but holding back?

Ever feel the sense of lost when you can no longer share with her what you want to? And when you feel troubled, feel happy, feel angry, she is the first person that comes to your mind?

And why would one still continue living in such denial and watching her leaves and then walloping in agony? Thats becos one just want to protect oneself from hurting lesser but in the end hurting even more, watching as love once again slip pass and allowing it to happen. And so, one will continue to fall, fallen, as you are reading this sentence.