Just three dosages and I gave up. It makes me feel nervous and unease. It makes me feel worst. I have stopped taking it after the third dosage let alone taking it for 6mths. It is not something I need to depend on to make me happy again. I understand it was my down period. I need to stand on my own feet. I believe I can do it. With all the support around me from ppl I may have seen before, or even strangers I chat online. Even without the supports, I still can stand tall.
I must understand that pple come, ppl go. I must not take things too hard. I should not be a perfectionist. I must be able to tolerate and accept my flaws and other’s flaws. I should not take failures too hard, they are just lessons I learn along the way as I live. Failures are precious lessons.
I have to understand that crying is normal when I feel down. It’s not a relapse. I must not lead myself to self-pity cos I am not. I must learn to love myself more and more each day and do things to make me happy. In fact, I am happy that I can now have so much time to see things in another angle of life. I do not depend on others to give me happiness. I must seek my own. I must be strong to be the pillar of the weak and needy. I am the mighty oh mighty miu who is ever so strong becos I have became numb after each fall.
It is my karma to have cross paths with all of you and I cherish everyone. Now know what I am doing everyday and I am back in reality again. I am just in self denial all the while. I aint now. I am me, the mighty oh mighty miu you love reading my blogs.
Lead me no to the dark side I am afraid not. That is a trap set to see me fall. I will not, I will not. For I am the mighty oh mighty miu you love seeing standing tall.
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